A Thousand Hills

Goodwill

The issue with travelling to 3rd world countries, is the poverty and struggle that's intertwined with its beauty and attraction.

It's been 3 days of sightseeing, markets, art shows but I'm yet to go to the Devil's pool. My birthday is tomorrow and I wanted to do the devil's pool on my actual birthday. I'm missing this man a lot more than I thought I would and I'm starting to regret not inviting him. I've been doing solo trips for years but this is the first time I've ever felt alone and lonely

I find myself homesick, I miss my family in Durban, Peanut and because I can't help think about Phakamile, I find myself thinking and missing Mkhulu too

Noxolo and I's lunch was brief but nice I'm glad we're somewhat back to speaking terms. I haven't seen her in over 9 months, and I just can't believe how much time has gone and all the changes that have happened since my hijacking attempt.
The conversation was awkward at first but it was a matter of time before we got into our usual flow

She's cut ties with the police minister. Her boyfriend now is a Nigerian club owner, he's also well known so I knew they were together through social media but it was nice hearing it from her.
She bought an eatery, and is starting a make-up line as well. She seems grown and matured

"I did something really bad Sedi, I didn't mean to but I think it's best we keep some distance between us for now. I'm just asking for your patience because I can't talk about it, you'll always be my big sister but for now, I need to sort things out. Alone" she said when the lunch and catch up session was over

"Did you sleep with Phakamile?" I asked and she actually laughed

Phakamile has history with influencers and celebrities so for me, it's been the only thing I can think of, that would cause a drift. I've considered it deeply and if it happened before me, I'm willing to fix and continue with our friendship. I trust them both and it would be ridiculous to end our friendship over something that happened before me.

"Oh hell no! Girl, no offence but your man is scary" she said and we laughed, I couldn't be offended, he used to intimidate me too

"Okay, I won't push any longer. It sucks but I'll respect your wishes"

We were both in tears when we hugged goodbye. It seemed unnecessary to cut ties. This was the same woman who helped me pay rent when I was drowning financially.
The same girl who came over to clean my house and cook for me when I wasn't well.

She and Lindzy are 2 sides of the same coin, sent to make life bareable during the darkest times in my life.
She deserves a room in my house too, I would have loved to be at her wedding one day or at the ribbon cutting of her eatery next week. A part of me knows we'll find our way to each other again.

I'm actually heart broken over the pause of our friendship, she's the closest thing to a sister I have.
I asked that we keep in touch for things that matter, she'll always have a friend in me and deep down I know I can call on her when in need.

Even if she was jealous at first and her words were too sharp when she leant about Phakamile and I, it's still not enough to cut a friendship this meaningful.
Her admitting she did something bad makes me believe there's something deeper brewing and it involves the Mzimelas or Danso

I asked Phakamile if something happened between them and her and his response was

"that's Danso's business, I just met her now as your shady unreliable friend" he said almost bored.

So I deciding to let it go, with the hope that somewhere along the upcoming months and not years, we'll find a way back into each other's lives.
Phakamile doesn't get why I'm upset and Lindzy has moved on as if she was never here.
It's weird to be in such a good space without her around, she was such a supportive and hands on friend.