Just a little feeling.

: 13 :

The sun was barely setting, as it was just no more than two hours after school no more than 33 minutes after any school clubs. Walking down the sidewalks of the empty streets, Okuyasu had only noticed no more than 6 people walking down the same path in both direction. His gaze focused on the floor ahead of him, ignoring most of his surroundings until he had made it to Tonio's small location of a restaurant. A place where he would call his third home, as he had grown extremely close to Tonio despite their difference. He had seen Tonio as family. His blonde hair, and his tall chef hat. And of course his small, but many stand abilities had reminded him of his dearly departed brother Keicho. 

His loneliness was always lifted when he was around the young adult , hoping that his energy would lift the teenager's. 

Okuyasu stepped on the small stairs and opened the door, the bell he always recognized went off. A small smile formed on his face when the delicious scent of food hit his face. "Ah! Ciao Signor Okuyasu! It's been awhile since I have seen your face! One, no, two weeks! Hah, it's been quite hard to maintain these past days without a lively personality like yours!" Tonio chirped. His head peaking out from the doorway of his dim kitchen. Okuyasu let out a snicker from the cheery greeting from the chief, as he takes a seat by a window. "I've been feeling quite down recently, Tonio. So I've decided to come down here to eat something, you know I can always rely on you." he said truthfully, resting carelessly on the chair by leaning back on the two hind legs. Tonio walked out the kitchen and over to Okuyasu with a pitcher of water and a tray with two empty wine glasses, his face changed to a confused one. Looking around and back at the teenager. "Ah. Okuyasu are you alone tonight?" Setting the tray down on the table and handing the glass to Okuyasu into his hand, and continuing to pour the water  into it with a hand on his hip. 

The Nijimura's expression changed after the man had finished  his question. Looking down into his glass, a scowl present, as he rotated the glass in his hand to keep him distracted. "Yeah, I am. I came by myself, since I'm in a rush." "Ah! Do you have homework you still need to do with your friend, Josuke?" he asked, but Okuyasu ignored. "Let me see your hand, Signor." Tonio stated, taking the teenager's hand into his own, feeling it to get a clear reading. "Ah, the usual fatigue is all I'm reading. Is that what you came here for?" Tonio asked, pulling his hands away and crossing his arms over his chest. "That is one of the reasons, yeah." he answered but his posture perked up, setting his glass down. "You don't read anything else in my palm? Like how I'm feeling, hypothetically?!" He said, sounding rather disappointed by just the answer itself being fatigue. The chief nodded his head, rubbing the back of his head. "Well, yes. My ability is to cure most physical illnesses. If you are searching for emotional illnesses. I'm not the right guy for that, Signor."

The silence, made Okuyasu sulk after the clear answer his friend gave him. Tonio lifted the glass from the tray and poured himself some of the water as he pulled the chair out from the table. Sitting across from Okuyasu as he rested his chin on top of his hands with a consulting smile on his face. "What seems to be the matter, Okuyasu? If I may ask, as a friend." Okuyasu continued to sit in silence, as he let out a heavy exhale. His eyes already felt like they were stinging from crying earlier,  but he didn't really have anymore tears to shed at the moment on how tired and angry he was with himself. He shrugged and made eye contact with Tonio, biting the inside of his cheek, trying to keep the pain to a minimum from causing any injury. 

"To keep it real with you Tonio. I never really put much thought with how I was feeling until after Yoshikage Kira." He mumbled, the raspiness in his voice was more prominent than usual. "I haven't really told anyone what I really feel all the time, only how I feel at the moment, you know?" Okuyasu leaned forward as Tonio nodded, his smile kept the teenager from stopping as he spoke up. 

He sighed once more, before he opened his mouth again. "I feel this way because, of myself." he said blankly, clenching his fists with his face flushed from embarrassment just from saying the simple sentence. "Can you please go into more detail Okuyasu? What makes you say that about yourself?" Tonio responded, taking a small sip of his water, keeping his focus on Okuyasu. The teenager nodded his own focus being blurred by tears, "I feel.. like I am responsible for.."