Features Of Our Future (Fondness s e r i e s #2)

Chapter 27

Tahimik at maingat kong dinadampain ng ointment ang malambot niyang labi gamit ang hinliliit kong daliri. Gano'n din sa itass ng kanyang pisngi kung saan may sugat

We're both quiet here inside his condo unit after a long time hugging each other. His just intensely looking at me while my face was just inch away from his

"Sa susunod na magpapakita ka sa'kin siguraduhin mong wala kang sugat"i told him calmly. Pero hindi ko napansin na napariin pala ang pagdampi ng daliri ko sa labing may sugat niya kaya napadaing siya pero hindi niya ito pinahalata

"I'm sorry"he whispered

I pursed my lips because of the heat that his lips giving on the tip of my finger. It's too soft and tempting. I had to look away to control myself from kissing him because I admit that I miss him too. Umatras ako ng kaunti at kunwaring nagbaba ng tingin do'n sa lagayan ng ointment para pakalmahin ang sarili dahil sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko

"Sorry? Why? Did you make a mistake?"I bravely said before looking at him back which make me feel weak. We're sitting at his sofa. He was leaning his back while I was sitting aside, facing him

He sighed before fixing his sit and face me then place his other hand above my thigh still not taking off his gaze on me"I'm sorry for my disappearing again"

I swallowed so hard because of his touch on my skin. I know it's not intentional but it gave another tense on my body! Isn't he aware on his hard appeal?

I slowly nodded before looking at his hand above my thigh just to avoid his eyes on me. Kailangan kong gawin 'yon para manalo ang pride ko, dapat akong mag-tampo 'noh! Hindi pwedeng sa isang sorry lang niya makalimutan kona ang pang-ghoghost niya

Hindi pwedeng sa isang sugat lang niya sa labi niya ay malimutan kona ang pagbabaliwala niya sa akin. Pero natiligilan ako sa mahabang pagtitig sa kamay niya ng mapansin kong may sugat din ang bandang kamao niya

Agad kong inangat ang kamay ko at marahang hinaplos ito kaya saglit siyang natigilan at agad na binawi ang kamay niya para itago ito mula sa akin. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin pero tipid na nginitian niya lang ako

"Khavin naman."Parang naiinis kopang sabi bago kusang tumayo at kinuha ang kamay niya sa likuran niya na pilit niyang tinatago mula sa akin

It has a bruise as If he punch someone or something. Namumula rin ito kaya lalong nabalot ng pag-aalala ang puso ko. Kung lagi nalang siyang mawawala at laging ganito ang itsura niya sa t'wing babalik mas pipilii  ko nalang na 'wag na siyang umalis

Gusto ko siyang tanungin pero alam kong hindi niya ako sasagutin. Iibahin niya lang ang usapan gaya ng lagi niyang ginagawa t'wing nangyayari ito sakanya. Naalala ko tuloy 'yung sinabi niya sa akin noon na hindi niya hahayaang makita ko ang sirang pagkato niya kaya lalo akong nabalot ng takot

Maingat ko ulit itong pinahiran ng gamot at ointment, ramdam kong nakatingin din siya sa kamay niyang ginagamot ko. Wala akong magawa kundi ang mapabuntong hininga nalang

"Do you want to have a date?"he suddenly asked, obviously trying to lift up the atmosphere between us

I shook my head still not looking at him. In my peripheral view I saw him nodded"what do you want to eat? Do you want me to cook for you? Hmm?"

It sounded hopeless but I still shook my head, refusing his offer. His just obviously trying to avoid something. 'Wag kang mag-alala hindi naman ako magtatanong kase alam kong ayaw mo

"Ahm.. what if, you cook for me? I miss your dishes"matunog pa siyang ngumiti kaya saglit akong napatingin sakanya

His smile is too force. It pinch the inner part of my heart again, knowing that his trying to hide his ruin self sway from me. It hurts because his hurting. Someone hurt him, I badly wanted to win my pride against my love for him but everytime his trying to form a smile for me.. I couldn't help but to obey