Features Of Our Future (Fondness s e r i e s #2)

Chapter 38

TW: incident, violence, gun, attempted suicide, sensitive words

At the very young age there's a lot of responsibilities are been waiting for me. It's not a big deal though, it's fine. I'm good at being responsible. I'm good at multitasking, I'm good of making everyone proud but maybe I'm really not good at all

["Sinusundo mo na ba ang kapatid mo? Don't make her wait, you know how impatient she is"]my mom laugh through the phone

I chuckled while I'm walking towards Bella's school. My mom is working in abroad since she gave birth to my little sister. Bella is elementary now and got accelerated because of her genius attitude.

Ever since bella came into our life it become more lighten up. She's so adorable and make my mood lift. She's clingy but moody sometimes, she loves using my phone and playing games there.

But she's different, she's not like the other kids who likes candies, she prefer eating veggies. She's also not the typical kid who get mad if someone steal her toy, because she will let you borrow it or else gave it to you

I love her so much, that I can do everything for her. That's why I really study hard during college because I want to gave to her all her needs, even the thing she never asked I will genuinely gave all to her

But maybe she was just an angel who gave to us for the meantime and need to go back where she really belong is

Nabitawan ko ang hawak kong phone nang makarinig ako ng sunod sunod na busina ng sasakyan. Mabilis akong napalingon dito at mariing napapikit sa pag-aakalang sa akin babangga 'yung truck na mukhang nawalan ng preno

Na sana ay hindi nalang niya ginawa. Sana hindi nalang siya umiwas para ako nalang 'yung nasagasaan

The moment I heard people started to scream make my eyes open and look around. I roam my gaze and saw from afar a dead body of my little sister

I blink once.. twice.. thrice to make sure that I wasn't hallucinating. I remain paralyse while trying to calm down my self, my hands are began from shaking especially when I saw how the driver went out of the truck and run away

I shook my head several times before running towards my sister. I kneel my knees at the ground and carefully touch her. My vision went blurry because of the idea building inside my head

I hug her while looking at her deep close eyes and soaked bloody body. She's not moving, I try to pinch her skin but I didn't receive any respond

"B-baby.."I called her with a mark of broken on my voice. I started to planted kisses on her forehead while my tears are now bracing my cheek"p-please wake up bella.. kuya is here. I'm sorry if I'm late"

I was so weak during that time. I reach her small hand and squeeze it, still trying to wake her up from a deep nightmare. I was crying so hard as if no one's watching me around. I heard people's chattered but I feel so numb

The moment I brought her to the hospital. They just clearly told me that she's dead. My dad eventually get the news, he immediately goes here at the hospital and saw my sister cover a white sheet

I couldn't even look at her now, especially when dad groaned in pain and lost. He even almost beg to save her daughter. He try to remove the cover from her body and cry more harder which made me feel more guilty

It should be me.

"A-anak.. papa is here. We will going to play right? M-mama is also coming h-home soon so please anak gising na.."he sobbed

I couldn't handle it anymore. I get outside and blame myself a lot of times. I punch my chest several times while my sharp tears are keep on going through my face. If I walk faster I should've put her in a danger, if I was aware that there is a truck I would probably ran towards her and save her but I failed. I'm fucking irresponsible, she doesn't deserve this!