~Assorted BxB Oneshots~

Twisted Lullaby

AshEiji ANGST

TW // mentions of past rape and child sexual exploitation, kidnapping, rape, death (no MCD)

Not NECESSARILY Banana Fish spoilers - this is canon divergent, but it's something that I think hypothetically could happen in the Banana Fish universe

(This is what Beloved was meant to be)

Requested by - N/A
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Ash Lynx

I can hear a man talking. It's familiar. Deep, a rough, gravelly voice that doesn't belong to anything other than a monster. A voice I'd heard as both a booming commander and a seductive whisper. I could never decide which scared me more. Although, I'm scared now.

Eiji is all I can think of. I don't know where he is, how to get to him, or if he's even safe. And that scares me more than my own predicament. I've cheated my own death countless times...I wish I could cheat his. He's everything, and yet could be turned to nothing without seconds. His smile could melt tarmac, but he could only ever show it to me.

I've heard him scream far too many times. Too many times that I could recite it at will. So frail...he was like a white rabbit in a war zone. A butterfly caught in a tornado. The last things I can remember are all his screams. I don't know who caused them...I just know they'll be dead soon. As soon as I figure out where I am, and why I'm here. Proving more difficult by the minute. Can't see much, don't know much, save for that my hands are tied around a pole behind my back, preventing me from moving. Pretty smart...this guy knows what he's doing. It's a man. I can hear loud, angry footsteps that don't befit a woman. Only a man could get so angry to display it so physically.

He's shouting - I'm right. A man I know well, though wish I didn't. A man I wish hadn't found me on the corner of the street aged 11, wide eyed and scared of the world I now call home. A man I wish hadn't tortured and raped me for 6 years, all while I protested with varying care for the outcome. A man I knew as Dino Golzine...and a man I also believed to be dead.

"I thought I told you that his face was to be unharmed..."

Ah...that's why it hurts...

"I-I'm sorry Papa, I promise it won't-"

There's a gunshot. And a crumpling body. I don't flinch. I'm used to it. It was the only outcome. You don't fail Dino. Else this happens.

I hear him approach. I look up, his face blurry as my vision attempts to focus. He appears into view, his face as ugly as I remember, and I spat at his feet before he even says a word.

"Now now little wildcat, there's no need for the hostility. We've brought you along to our little performance!"

"Cut the shit, Dino. Where is he...?" My words were laced, making him know that I meant them. He merely chuckled, a hand reaching down and stroking my hair as I was so used to. It was disgusting, his hands sweaty and wrinkled. Truly vile in every sense of the word.

"It's nice to see that you've been making friends with people outside the mansion, Ash...perhaps more than friends?"

I said nothing, glaring at him as if he'd killed my pet. I was glaring at him because he might've killed my everything. I couldn't know. It wouldn't be unlike him to steal the world from me. He'd done it once before, so he wouldn't think twice about doing it again.

"Answer me, slut. What is he to you?"

"...earth" I whispered under my breath, soft enough so the old man wouldn't hear me. He just glared down, awaiting an answer that I was never going to give him. He soon figured that out - he'd insist he knew me better than anyone. But that was Eiji. Eiji was the one who knew me inside out. He knew that I was grumpy in the mornings. He knew that I was scared of pumpkins. He knew that I had a bad habit of  sleeping with my arms and legs splayed all over the bed, something he'd bemoaned me for more than once (I wasn't really listening - it was morning, I was grumpy!). I savoured every moment we had together, and missed him every moment we weren't.