falling for the bad boy

c h a p t e r 19

Y/N: fine, if he won't come out- I'll come in! *you jump up from your seat and walk into the kitchen*

You rummage threw the cupboard when you find some crisps(chips), chocolate, and ice-cream.
You exhale heavily, as you now stand outside ash's door, you knock (for once).

A: come in.

*you enter as he's sat in the corner of his bed, watching tv.*

Y/N: what you watching?

A: dunno this erm- *he gets quiter* Spiderman movie...

Y/N: NO WAY I LOVE SPIDERMAN!!

A: REALLY? WHOS UR FAVOURITE SPIDERMAN 1, 2 or 3?

Y/N: ANDREW? WTF

A: ha no tobey is????????

Y/N: whateva you say, spider boy...
*you smirk as you jump on the bed with the snacks*

A: what's this? Don't you remeber the last time you brought food in my room? *hinting to the time you threw it everywhere*

Y/N: whattt?? That's never happened?
*opening a jar of cookie dough ice-cream*

A: right... *whilst digging in with y/N's spoon*

Y/N: wow! *you both burst out laughing, forgetting everything.*

Y/N's POV:
It was nice for the last ten minutes of the movie, it was like I never saw this side to ash. He didn't care of what I thought of him, and he seemed more funny, and comforting around me. He always smiled with his teeth, which was a rare occasion for this boy. And he was really physical- like he kept play fighting with me. obvs I won tho!

*gwen dies in the movie*
You ball your eyes out, knowing you've seen it like over 100 times.
"BRING GWEN BACK"
Ash sits staring at you, as you have a moment. You look over and see him judging you, wow.

*you reach your finger out and point*
omg is that a- is that a real tear on your check! *you whipe it off* and it so was aswell, omg!
*you laugh to yourself as he playfully pushes you off*
You budge up next to him and rest your head on his shoulder, "I'd rather me die and have a relationship like this, then not one at all"

A: isn't that abit- sad...

Y/N: they ARE the definition of love, I'd do anything for a Peter Parker!
*you didn't even realise what you was talking about till it clicks and ash questions you*

A: well erm- what would this "Peter Parker" role act like?

Y/N: *you tease him* well he'd have his flaws, but he'd love me, and do anything for me. Thats all I care about. He could do all the wrongs in the world, but if he did me right, I'd misplace them all!

*Ash gulps as he looks at you, now your head no longer resting on him. He stares at you, from the side, as he looks you up and down. You never really knew if this was a good sign, or a mucky look but- you didn't care.*

You fully rotate your body, so your looking at him, and you spring into his arms. You hug him tightly wrapping your arms, around his head. He seemed weirded out but then he out his hands on your waist, and hugged you back.
A: y/n...

Y/N: sssh *you quite him as you both are in the moment*
Hugging ash felt like a wait lifted off your shoulders. You wanted to tell him everything in your life, about you not being a good person but how better he made you feel. He didn't know any of this but hugging him felt like it all went away.

"We don't ever have to speak of yesterday if your not comfortable, but you can't leave me because of it- you really can't-"
*tears flood your eyes as you panic, and blubber.*

Y/N: I'm sorry- I can't do this ash.

A: what's up?
*he pulls you away, as he holds your hands*

Y/N: I'm not a good person.

A: is anybody tho? Nobody is perfect- you need to live with that-

Y/N: I can't live with the fact I drew everyone apart! I am the reasons peoples life's get fucked over! My mom gave me up to my dad because she couldn't handle my behaviour! My dad gave me up to my nan because he didnt have the money to cover me! My nanna was old, and I didn't mean to- I wish I never got in the drug business-

A: hey come on, *he pulls you back in as you cry on his shoulder*
none of this is your fault y/n! like you said, your flaws are covered by all your pros.

Ash was bad at comforting, but being in his presence while he was like this, felt good.

Y/N: I just wanna go to sleep man.

A: so then you can, *he turns off the tv and switches off the lamp. You get comfy, as he stands up to leave the room.*

Y/N: where are you going?

A: the couch- the place where I always sleep y/n-

Y/N: stay please, I mean you don't have to but, can't you just stay here for the night?

A: oh erm- sure.
*he walks back up to y/n and lays down next to her. You snuggle into ash, as he puts his arm around you. You felt safe and protected, as you drifted away to sleep.