Journey To The Half Of My Deen

Chapter Nineteen

LAIBA P.O.V 

I made dinner with the help of the house girls. I made a lot of variety of foods. Making myself exhausted more than usual. For starters I made some honey chicken wings with some chicken lollipops, for the main course I made white biryani, Butter chicken and naan and for desserts I made tiramisu, chocolate pudding and fruit salad. That is a lot of food, I know.

I was exhausted with everything but I could not bring myself to rest. I had an uneasy feeling making me anxious throughout the whole day.

I went to my room and was reading a book without realising what time I fell asleep. I woke up to hear the adhan but there was noise in the house, I smiled knowingly. I woke up to pray, after praying I put on my hijab and headed downstairs.

I was really feeling unwell, I saw my beautiful mother smiling and seeing her smile made me smile without realising. I walked towards my family and greeted everyone. I hugged aunt Azra then went over and started talking to Lubna and Lubaba.

I felt anxious that something would happen, I ignored the feeling and went to the kitchen. Looking around I could not breathe properly and I felt very dizzy and I held on to something or someone next to me. I heard panicked questions and was made to sit on the chair. I heard Lubnas voice telling me to breathe, I was having an asthma attack and an anxiety attack.

I felt a bit calmer after I took my inhaler, I felt weak and exhausted. I knew I was not well emotionally and that is why I am getting more affected. "You have to take care" my mom scolded, clearly worried. I looked away and sipped the water that my smaller brother just got me.

"I just exhausted myself mom" I shook my head at this sickness. After a while I sat on the table and was served by my worried mother while I tried to convince her that I was fine but was unsuccessful which made me sigh in defeat.

We heard the bell ring and in that moment my eyes met His. I felt my food wanting to rise up so I looked away before I felt more sick to my stomach. I heard Sadaf and Halimah with My brother in Law which made me happy. She was told by Lubna just what happened so she looked worried, she greeted everyone and came to my side.

I hugged her in such a way where she was standing but my head was just below her chest around her waist. She leaned down to kiss my head and pulled out a chair next to me and sat down.

I started to feel anxious again, I could not just shake it off. Which made me more frustrated. It won't stop until something actually happens. I looked at everyone around me, everyone complimented me on the dinner that i made which made me smile but honestly even if i was happy the strong feeling that i just could not push aside i just gave a fake smile. Halima gave me a look telling me that i tell her what is wrong later. But how could i? When I did not what's wrong.

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After dinner everything was cleared by the house helpers, we sat in the ladies sitting room and my sister was talking to aunty Azra about the baby, I just sat next to them listening to them so excited. I just looked at them and was amused at their talks and gossip. I was never the type that liked it but I just heard them.

Soon the topic of marriage turned up, making me groan out loud which made them look at me and then they started talking about that guy who had come to see me. I felt like I was blushing, they thought because I was shy but I was blushing because I was embarrassed.

I did not know what I felt about that guy, something about him did not feel right, he was good looking and seemed like a nice guy but something about him just made me feel like saying no to him.

Suddenly Sadaf got a call catching everyone's attention, she looked up from her phone clearly embarrassed and excused herself. This was weird of her to do. We all knew Sadaf's friends and who she surrounded herself with. She always talked to them around us.

I looked at her walk out of the ladies sitting room only to see that everyone's eyes were on her and were confused at this odd behaviour. I knew that Sadaf had not been herself lately. Keeping secrets and change in her behaviour. I was curious, she never hid anything from me but lately we barely talked.

I sighed as Anty Azra got up to leave, I hugged them goodbye as they left, I sat next to Halima, "what is up with Sadaf?" she asked i shook my head sighing "i have no idea" i looked away then i leaned my head on Her shoulder.

Sadaf walked in clearly excited, she told us that she got accepted into her dream college. We were all excited about it until she mentioned it is two hours away from here, her mother said no immediately, they started to protest and try to convince her mother.

My mother got a call interrupting us, this Call made me sit upright. I felt it, like my blood just ran cold, halima held my hand realising. After the call ended what my mother said next could make any girl shatter in every way.

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A/N: Assalamu Alaikum, Eid Mubarak guys! i hope you had a blast. i know... i know.... i gave a late update, i honestly apologize for the late update but i hope to be updating more often than usual.  i hope you liked it, please vote, comment as i would love to know your opinions on the characters and book.