Journey To The Half Of My Deen

Chapter two

LAIBA P.O.V

"Audhubillah" I woke up with a nightmare but didn't say anything I turned to look at Sadaf sleeping peacefully so I slowly crept out of bed then checked the time to see its only few minutes remaining to Tahajjud so I went to the washroom but as was entering I felt a bit dizzy so I quickly held the door for support.

 after few seconds I was okay so I did wudhu and slowly sneaked out of the house and went to the bench to look up at the sky and felt the cold wind hit my skin which made me relax

I heard someone's footsteps as I was staring up at the sky I turned to look around but I never saw anyone which made me a bit nervous and made my hands cold and sweaty so I quickly stood up to go back to the house but before I could stand someone said "what are you doing out here all alone at night Laiba?" ‏ I jumped around to see Zaid and I sighed in relief

"scared me!" I said a bit annoyed "I had a nightmare so came out to breath fresh air to calm myself " I said while looking down I felt nervous because even though he's my cousin he's not my mehram and its said that when two people are alone (of the opposite sex) then there's a third among them who is shaytaan

"Okay" he whispered and quickly left to go inside and I decided to stay for a while then go back in

As I was going in I felt like the earth was moving but I was wrong I was just feeling like the earth was moving but I was right in my place, i couldn't breathe, I held onto something and I shut my eyes and it didn't stop immediately as I thought it would but I was so wrong shutting my eyes only made it worse and started to feel so bad in my stomach like it was turning inside out .

I didn't realize but Zaid was right there when he said something which I didn't understand when I opened my eyes and my legs felt like jello so immediately held tighter on the thing I was holding on to.

"Laiba, are you okay?" He asked again with worry I couldn't reply so I immediately ran to the kitchen and threw up and he immediately ran upstairs to get my parents and hearing his shoutings the whole house was awake and my mum rushed to me holding me, "Laiba what happened baby" my father looked at me with worry and immediately threw up again in the sink and before I know it everything went black.

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Beep.... Beep... Beep...

I recognized the sound, the heartbeat monitor and nebulizer, great... just great...

Urgh! Seriously! So annoying! I tried to open my eyes but immediately shut them because of the brightness of the room, my head felt so heavy

I groaned, and slowly opened my eyes and blinked so much that my eyes could get used to the light. I saw the room properly, I looked around and saw the flower pot near the window and I could smell the strong alcohol of the sanitizer. I saw the black horse painting at a countryside and the white room

I've been here before.

I turned to my left to see the heart monitor which was doing the annoying Beeping sound, and also saw that I was getting nebulized. great!

I sighed and looked up then I realized what today was!! Abdallah Uncle, Azra Aunty and the whole family were supposed to arrive today! Oh my Allah and I'm here!! I have to make the Starters and dessert, now what?! I know mum guys would handle it on their own but I wanted to meet them so bad! But I didn't want them to see me looking so miserable and weak.

My thoughts were cut short when someone walked in! No other than my parents with my sister Halima, I think Irfan and Arif have to gone to the Airport

"You're awake!" Shirked Halima then rushed to hug me, her hug was so tight!! "Can't..... Breathe...." I whispered and she giggled then let go of me

"Alhamdulillah you're okay" said mum and dad held her, she looks like she went through a lot, I feel so bad

The doctor started asking questions and I replied after the doctor left I was talking to Halimah about her small growing business. She had a dream to bake cakes and one day her husband and in-laws made her a bakery and she was so happy that she couldn't stop smiling and crying, after she left to go home so she could be with the guests and help Rafia Aunty.

The whole day I spent just sleeping and my parents were here the whole time while everyone was waiting for me to come back home, I don't know why but I didn't feel like going home. I felt like I would rather be here than at home.

I heard someone walk in and I looked up to see mum coming in with a cup of coffee for herself and i couldn't help but wish to have some but my father refused

"What did the Doctors say Ammi?" I asked while staring at my hands "don't worry Jaan nothing serious" she dismissed the subject but I knew she wasn't lying but i was worried that she is

"I'm serious ma what's wrong with me? Why am I like this? Is it something bad?" I panicked and she immediately held my hand and kissed it.

"No Jaan, trust me nothing serious just you had an anxiety attack" she smiled and kissed me forehead and I smiled back nodding

"are you guys planning against me? Should I be afraid?" Asked dad and I abruptly giggled "maybe?" I said, raising my eyebrow and smirking. My dad smiled a really huge one that he sat next to me and held my other hand and this was one of my favorite moments with my parents except the part that I physically felt shitty at the moment.

Later that day I got permission to go home and I sighed with relief finally I go home tonight and get to meet the guests I was more nervous about meeting him, hoping it's not awkward and as I sat on the uncomfortable chairs of the hospital and my mum next to me while dad payed off the bills and filled some weird forms.

"Who's coming to get us?" I asked mum she looked me with a small smile "your crazy brother who else?" as soon as she said that and my crazy brother appeared "Assalamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuhu" he greeted and we replied

he sat next to me and kissed my forehead "you Kay babe?" He asked, and I smiled. I remember he used to say that I was his second girlfriend after mum, Halima and Irfan were never so close since they both always fought but Irfan and I always teased each other and were really close, we fought as well but that's just normal with every sibling.

"I'm okay babe" and winked at him and he gave me the smile that I love which made me smile "let's go" dad said as we got up and followed him outside into the dark outside and on our ride back home I went to sleep on the way.

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As we reached home I felt my stomach do a flip but ignored it, when we reached home everyone turned to look at us, Sadaf came rushing to me and hugged me

"scared me laiba!" Sadaf hugged me and hit my head "hey! Not my fault!" i Said with a smirk, she rolled her eyes and she pulled me towards Azra Aunty she was talking to Lubna and when they noticed me she got so happy and excited I went towards her and she got up and hugged me

"Assalamu Alaikum Aunty Azra" she pulled out of the hug and I kissed her hand "Wa Alaikum Salam Habibti how are you feeling?" "Alhamdulillah better" she made me sit in between her and Lubna and I had a small conversations with Lubna and Lubaba

We were in the females sitting room so I didn't meet Abdallah uncle and his 3 sons honestly I don't think I'm ready to meet 'him' yet

"Dinner is ready" said Sadaf and everyone got up to go and eat and I went upstairs to my room, I showered and felt so relaxed.

I changed into my favorite black and pink suit. It looked like a dress yet it was Indian style which I loved and wore black scarf with some black flats.

I put a bit of kohl in my eyes and put mascara on my already thick eyelashes, with a natural light pink lipstick which made my lips look natural pink and beautiful. I smiled when I was happy with the way I looked because I felt like dressing up.

I looked down at my hand where the drips were and saw the plaster looked bad and since it was wet I needed to get it changed.

I went to the washroom and got the aid and changed the plaster then made my way downstairs.

 Ya Allah please help me.