Journey To The Half Of My Deen

Chapter Four

LAIBA P.O.V

I immediately stood up to see Sadaf at the door. It looked like she was in deep thoughts, like she was having a hard time figuring something out, so I walked up to her "you okay Sadaf?" I asked.

she snapped out of her world "huh?! Yeah I'm okay" she said rudely and walked upstairs and I rolled my eyes at her and cleaned up once everyone was done having their breakfast, only to find a paper that looked crumpled up on the chair where he was sitting my curiosity got the best of me and I opened it up.

'I knew you since we were kids but the last time we ever met until today was when you were ten and I was thirteen , I remember everything My Labo, I do .

I also remember the good times and also the bad times, those secret meeting we used to do, those ice creams we shared secretly, I remember when you used to get angry or annoyed whenever I talked to any other girl in our school then to make up to you I used to bring you chocolate and a tub of ice cream that you hid so no one could have.

Whenever I fought with Sadaf you used to handle me first then go to her, whenever I was sad anything to get off my chest I used to come to your room and we talked everything out, those times where I used to say that you were my dream girl ;) and honestly you still are, and also I remember those promises that I broke and honestly I'm so sorry but I became so busy and I changed and I met different people, new friends, new environment everything new that I forgot about contacting you whenever I was around them but honestly I'm not going to lie there's not one day that went by that I didn't remember you, your smile, your giggle, your laugh, the ways your hair was , your beautiful pink lips and flushed face and gorgeous eyes. And honestly right now you have changed but you are still as gorgeous and as amazing, if not more

Please reply to my text,please

From your Zeeshan <3 ;)

I looked at the letter in Awe, I didn't know what to do. I felt nervous and I felt emotions I don't think I am familiar with so I decided to take advice from none other than my mum and Sister. Yup they know everything I can't hide anything otherwise I would feel guilty and I hated that feeling.

I went to mum's room only to find my sister and mum sitting having a conversation "can I join in?" I asked and both of them smile I turned to close the door and jumped right in between both of them

" I need help with something" I said looking down at my hands and both of them turned serious, there's something I admire about them, they know when to be serious and when to be playful and when to be whenever and however I need them to be at that moment I don't know how but us three share this bond.

So I told them everything of how I was had panicked about seeing Zeeshan again then I told them what he texted me and read them the letter he wrote for me

"Awe my goodness you two would make an awesome couple!! Maybe I should talk to Azra so you two could get married!!" Mum said excitedly

"Ma!!! No!!" I whined and looked at Halima she looked more serious and then gave me one of those looks that says talk to me in private and I gave a small nod.

They gave me few suggestions on what to do but I didn't know what exactly to do because I couldn't chose, then later I went to my room and I didn't know but Halima came right after me

"Please help" I said to her and she nodded then sat down

"he's playing with you" she said abruptly and I looked at her shocked. Playing with me?

"Look, Laiba, if he really likes you then he will come to our parents for marriage and honestly if he doesn't do that then do everything you can to ignore him" she responded the question that was in my mind while I listened carefully

"But where did he liking me come from?" I asked because I don't remember that being mentioned before

"Laiba he clearly likes you that's why he's always staring at you but honestly I need you to remember this Laiba if he could leave His PRAYERS for the sake of this Duniya what guarantee do you have that he won't leave YOU for this Duniya" I frowned clearly lost on what she meant by him leaving his prayers, I thought he used to pray.

"what do you mean?" I asked voicing my thoughts

she sighed "Aunty Azra was crying to mum today and told her how Zeeshan had left his prayers for all these years and today he prayed after a really long time" my eyes widened in shock

"seriously?" I was speechless. I didn't know what else to say and just nodded.

I don't want to judge him because you are the judge Ya Allah, I don't know what to do please help me I thought and sighed.

***

The next morning I wore my hijab and my exercise clothes so that I could go to the nearest women's gym which was set up by me and is ran by my bestie Rania, about a year ago. We both wanted to go to the gym but since it was men and women together. us muslim girls and women couldn't go which would make me and my best friend upset.

I happened to mention this to my father and he decided to help invest for the gym and I set up the gym with my bestie. Rania managed the gym while i was at school and once school was over i used to run the gym, which reminds me that i hadn't talked to Rania nor had i gone to the gym.

Rania is two years older than me, we met at our local masjid four years ago where they have islamic classes. Sadaf was not into the classes much and had dropped out which made me be alone. A few days later Rania had just joined which made her really nervous and I decided to approach her and since then we have been inseparable.

I entered the gym to hear the music playing and I nodded at the receptionists as a way of greeting. I smiled at some of the Muslim and non-Muslim women there who i happened to see them at my gym regularly, i also saw new young girls wearing the workers clothes which means that Rania must have hired them. I walked over to the office which is at the back, I knocked and entered.

Rania looked up and smiled " Assalamu Alaikum Habibty how is your health now?" i went up and hugged her before sitting right across from her

"Wa Alaikum Salam, Alhamdulillah i am much better, but how did you know?" i asked playing with my fingers "Well i have no idea why you have that phone of yours, you might as well throw it away" she rolled her eyes and continued

"well to answer your question, I, being a good friend was worried sick since you were not responding to my calls of messages but then Sadaf happened to answer one of my calls and told me that you were in the hospital and also told me about your past coming back into your life, so i gave you some space since i knew you'd have to come back to me eventually" she said looking at the computer i nodded "sorry" i whispered looking anywhere but her

"It is okay Habibty, but next time keep me updated. I couldn't even come over since you know i would not be comfortable with your guests around" she got up and came to hug me

I hugged her back tightly "Now tell me everything" she smirked and i told her everything.