4 years later
I guess you could say these four years have been pretty tough.
Jack kept his promise and we speak at least twice a week even if it's just small two minute convocations. He is busy with his music career and I respect that, he has finally made it and him and Jack have had more than one world wide headline tour which is amazing for them and I couldn't be more proud.
I don't get to see him that often because obviously its expensive and believe it or not famous people don't get that much free time but whenever he is in England I see him and if he gets nominated for an award I will go over to the states and support him there however I stay among the crowd and try not to draw attention to myself.
When I was sixteen my grandpa died and the day I was told my whole world came cashing down on me. My best-friend, father figure, role model and grandpa had just been taken away from me and I couldn't handle it. I cried so hard I was physically sick.
When I realized crying wasn't going to help the pain I tried to kill myself but my two year old brother walked in and asked why I had so many sweeties in my hand, of course they were pills and not sweets but he wasn't to know that.
The next thing I tried seemed to have some impact. I decided to drink away my problems so I took to the streets of London in the hope of bumping into someone I knew which luckily I did and I went out and got so drunk I threw up multiple times and stupidly I didn't stop there. A week later the constant cycle of getting drunk and high with no food in my system took its toll on me and I collapsed which leads me to why I ended up in hospital for three weeks.
I didn't wake up for a couple of days because of something to do with my brain trying to heal my body I don't know I wasn't really listening if I'm honest, at the time it didn't seam like a bit deal. However I do remember waking up to Jack sleeping on one of those uncomfortable chairs they have in hospitals.
//|Flashback|\\
"Jack?" I tried to speak normally but it came out in a thick, hoarse voice and it burnt my throat
"Ava oh my god never do anything like that again!" he said jumping up and coming to my side
"I thought you were going to die, I should have been here to help you get through it how stupid could I have been-" I cut him off
"I'm not your responsibility you didn't have to do anything at all" I told him seriously
//|Flashback Over|\\
He helped me get better and because I hadn't been doing my school work like I should have I was forced to go back to real school which meant I had to actually socialize for the first time in ages. Also I could no longer sleep in until whatever hour of the day pleased me and it wouldn't matter.
I went back to Kings much to my disapproval although I was looking forward to seeing my old friends but it turns out if you ditch school for a group of hot guys and then hibernate for the next 14 months only leaving the house to go to a party then people don't really want to be your friend anymore.
I was okay with this though because I made some new friends, people I never even spoke to before and I felt like I could be myself with them from the first day we became friends. Of course I was still friends with Roseanna but she was away taking her first year of six forms in Paris, something to do with music and drama I don't really know. She was the year above me which sucked.
I felt like I owed it to my grandpa to try my best because he would have told me straight that I need to do better if he could see me then, I felt as though I had let him down.
So not caring what anyone said I tried my very hardest, went to extra lessons after school and even asked for extra homework. If it wasn't for meeting the guys I never would have done that because I cared about what people thought about me too much but they made me see that in school all you need are your grades because once you leave you never have to see any of them again except you friends and sometimes you loose them too.
I got the A's I needed and was all set to move out to LA and start my life there while attending UCLA that was of course until the night that changed my life just a couple of weeks before I turned 18 which meant that we became orphans.
Ali has her own family so she can't and doesn't want to take Josh in; Lucy well if we knew where she was maybe she would have him. You see she has always had this desire to travel and when she realized she hated her job she just took all of her money, sold her house and left and well we haven't seen her since but I bet she is having an amazing time living her dream that everyone told her she couldn't have.
My Grandma is too old to deal with at the time 3 year old and it just wouldn't be a good idea.
That left me, a lot of people said I was too young but when I turned 18 legally I was aloud to have him if I was seen fit as a guardian. It took a lot of time and meeting after meeting but finally he was aloud to come and live with me and legally I was seen as his guardian.
So now I am living in Los Angeles, I attend UCLA doing a bio-medical research degree and after that I will go on to get a major and finally PHD. Well that's the Plan anyway. I am the legal guardian of my soon to turn 4 year old little brother and no I still have no contact with any of the guys except the Jacks. Oh and also I model part time.
