Today is Friday and Roseanna still hasn't arrived. She never text me like she said she would and I'm starting to get worried. What if Harry has hurt her or something.
My grandma is supposed to be here early hours of the morning which I'm really excited about.
Nash has rang me everyday asking if I had heard from Roseanna yet. I hate letting him down but I can't lie to him.
I haven't seen Cameron again since he came over or Jack but I understand they are busy and their lives do not revolve around me.
I didn't have any classes today and Josh was already at school. I didn't really know what to do with myself so I just went on my social medias but then I saw a tattoo page and I knew what I was doing today.
By the time I was picking up Josh it was all done and I had also set up everything ready for my grandma.
"Hey baby" I say as Josh runs up to hug me"
"Is Grandma here yet?" He asked excited
"Not yet but tonight she will be"
"What's that?" He asked pointing at my wrist
"I got some more tattoos but don't tell Grandma" he pretends to zip up his mouth and throw away the key which made me laugh
"What's for dinner?" He asked only seconds later
"What do you want?"
"Ummm ice cream" his face lit up as the words left his mouth
"We can have just ice cream " I tell him laughing slightly
"Pleeeeease Ava" he begged
"How about we go to taco bell and then the broad walk for some ice cream afterwards?" I try to compromise
"Thank you Ava I love you" he said in his cute little voice
Its not that I can't cook or i'm bad at it but i am still just an 18 old who wants to spend all day in bed but unfortunately that isn't possible.
It only took around 15minutes to get to taco bell and once we had ordered we found a free booth to sit at.
Josh was making a huge mess everywhere so I stood up to get some napkins I bumped into a solid body.
"I am so sorry" I apologies quickly
"No no it was my fault I should have been looking where I was going" a very familiar voice said
Looking up at the persons face for the first time I realised who it was straight away. What is it with me and bumping into people I haven't seen in a while lately.
"Tom? What are you doing out here?" He has been away for two years and I thought he would have gone home just to let them know he isn't dead. (He is in the army if you forgot)
"Sorry do I know you?" He was staring straight at me trying to work out who I am
"Jeez I know its been two years but you really don't remember your sisters best fr- your sisters childhood best friend"
"Ava? No that can't be you, you are so different! Good different but just so different" he rambled
"Wait why did you change what you were going to say?"
"What?" I pretended I didn't know what he was talking about
"You were going to say best friend but youstopped yourself and said childhood best friend"
"You have been gone a really long time, a lot has happened these past two years and maybe it would be best for you to go see your family I bet they missed you like crazy" as I said that I bent over to wipe Josh's face and the table
"Is that Josh?" He asked sitting down opposite me
"The one and only" Josh replied with a cheeky grin which made me laugh, we did our little hand shake thingy because I taught him to say that.
"So are your parents out here with you?" He asked not realising I was the parental figure in Josh's life
"Like I said a lot has happened in these past couple of years and its probably best if you go home and maybe they will fill you in" I tell him picking Josh up and putting him on my hip
"Goodbye Tom it was nice to see you again" I hug him and leave. Its weird because before we used to be so close but now it felt really awkward around him, like one of those friends you have were you aren't really friends you are just in the same friend group and its always awkward being alone with them.
I don't want to talk about my parents to everyone that I meet and they don't know because no matter how much I deny it. I miss them so fucking much and yes I bloody hated them and hardly ever saw them but they were my mum and dad. I would do anything just to see another note on the counter saying they would be back in two weeks or another fight with them... Anything.
I need to stop thinking about it or I will break down while I'm driving and that will be dangerous.
We finally got to the broad walk and it was still quite early because we ate early. So we walked for a little bit until we found the ice cream parlour we always go to.
I had watermelon ice cream and Josh had bubblegum. We just sat and talked about Grandma coming and he told me he made friends with the new boy at school.
Once we had finished we headed back home and fell asleep together in my bed with the alarm set for 2:30.
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I wrote a massive chapter and it all deleted so cba to write it all out again so this is kind of a short chapter
