"What just happened?" Roseanna asked looking between me and the door
"Just leave me alone" I say walking off I didn't mean for it to sound horrible or bitchy but I just want to be left alone and I'm not used to sharing the house with anyone other than Josh and occasionally Jack. Its just weird and unfamiliar.
I was emotional and there is only one thing that helps at times like this. I went to my room and changed into my usual work out clothes, a pair of spandex shorts and a sports bra then I went down to the gym and just ran, punched, kicked, pulled, pushed and stretched all of the anger and upset out of my body until I physically couldn't carry on.
When I was a teenager I used to cut or drink every time I got like this but as I have matured I have learnt that there are better ways of dealing with out of control emotions.
I went to the kitchen to get a drink and Nash and Roseanna were sitting down eating.
"Roseanna I just want to say I'm sorry about earlier I was just in a mood and I shouldn't have taken it out on you" I did feel really bad about that
"Its cool I know how you get" I just nod and get a water from the fridge
"Why is it everytime I come here you are wearing revealing clothing?" Nash asked looking at me
"Its because I want you to love me" I joke
"Since when have you excersised?" Roseanna asked looking at me like I had a carrot attached to my face
"You know when you cut someone that has no friends out of your life they change a lot" I say sitting down with them
"I'm sorry about that okay"
"Yeah yeah whatever I got over it awhile ago" I shrug
"Are you going to eat?" She asks me
"I will later" I nod sipping my drink
"Ava" she said giving me a stern look
"I have been living on my own for months now and I'm not dead. I'm not eating right now because you made salad and that is just ew and I also just did a two hour work out so I'm not eating yet" she nodded in response
"Which room did you pick in the end?" I bet it was the basement one
"The one in the basement" she grins oh I'm good
"What is the locked room down there?" nash spoke for the first time during this conversation
"Its where I store the bodies" I say with a straight face and he looks horrified
"I'm kidding its just where I do school work and stuff but I have to keep it locked in case someone gets in and fucks it up" I tell them which was the truth
"Understandable" the nod
"Did you give her a full tour or just the rooms?" I ask nash
"You get the full Monty with me" he said looking smug
"You're an idiot" roseanna said shaking her head
"Are you staying the night?" I ask Nash
"Yeah he is" Roseanna gives me a toothy smile
"Right well you can either stay in her room or there are some spare ones upstairs just don't go in Jacks room" I tell him and he nods "oh you will need this too" I give roseanna a key to the house.
"Thanks, I'm going to go look for a job tomorrow" she told me
"There is no rush for you to find one" I say shrugging, I can support us both but obviously she wants to become a famous actress so she kind of needs a job to persue that.
"Nash can hook you up" I say winking "I'm joking but I will keep an eye out for anything" she thanks me and then I go shower.
Before I get in I order Chinese food and by the time I'm out and dressed in pyjamas it is here.
I sat in the movie room watching the Notebook with a load of Chinese food all around me and used tissues on the floor when Roseanna and Nash walked in. I saw the flash of a camera and looked over at the door to see Nash had taken a picture of me in this mess.
"That goes no where" I say shoving some more noodles in my mouth.
"Too late its on my story" he says plopping down on the large seat and roseanna followed his action.
"Whats your snapchat?" I ask ready to search him on my phone
"Just search it by the barcode thingy" he says holding his phone out
I find him and add him which he accepts and then I look at his story and burst out laughing. The caption was this girl is a model everybody, you could see all of the food around me and my baggy clothes along with my wet hair being in a top knot and my eyes are red and puffy from crying at the film. I was a mess put it that way.
Its weird having Roseanna here we haven't really been that close for around two years because she went off to France and then when she came back I was busy with studying and then the harry thing happened and I feel like we are friends but not best friends and it makes me so upset just thinking about it.
Right now she wouldn't be my first person to go to when I have a problem and as much as I want her to be I just don't feel likewe have that kind of friendship anymore.
