[Old] Never let go, Never Runaway (Oumasai)

EVERBLUE

TW: Self-harm!!

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At lunch, I hung out with Makoto and his friends. Those people were, Byuakuya of course, Toko Fukawa who I think was only there for Byuakuya, Nagito Komeada, Hajme Hinata, and Chiaki Ninami.

It was kinda weird hanging out with the 3rd years since we don't really talk but they were nice to me so that's ok. Makoto said he'd keep Enoshima away from me so that was a relief.

Now Makoto told Byuakyua to walk back to my locker with me so no one (Enoshima) can hurt me.

"Bye Togami!" Exclaimed Makoto as he kissed the taller male on the cheek and walked off.

Byuakuya gave Makoto a little wave before following me.

He cleared his throat. "Which one is your locker?" He asked sternly.

"Uh... Just follow me." I said.

"Mk."

I walked to my locker with Togami following. I entered the code correctly and the metal box opened.

"Suck it, nerd," Miu said walking behind me and shutting the locker.

"Huh? I thought you were home today Iruma?" I asked.

She shook her head. "Nope! I just skipped the morning classes because I was bored."

"Oh. Can you hurry up with your stuff?" I asked. "Please...?"

She smirked. "I'll think about it."

I could tell she was just standing at her locker and not doing anything because she had everything she needed in her hands, she just wanted to irritate me.

After a minute, Togami cleared his throat. "Can you hurry up woman? I'm not stupid I- we know what you're doing. Just hurry up and go to class."

Miu looked mad. "You're not my mother. I can do whatever I want." 

Togami pushed her out of the way. "I said move."

"Huh?" Iruma looked ready to fight. She shoved Togami into the wall.

"Damn woman," Togami said, pushing her to the ground.

"OW!" Exclaimed Miu as she hit him.

"TOGAMI, IRUMA STOP!" Aoi Asahina said. I think she's in the same class as Togami.

"STOP!" Kaede yelled.

The people that were already in their respected classrooms stepped out to view the fight.

Iruma got off of the ground. She punched Togami in the face.

His glasses fell off of his face. One of the lenses popped out due to blunt force trauma. Iruma stepped on them

"What the fuck!" Yelled Byuakyua as he shoved her against the outside of the lockers.

"It's amazing! The ultimates are-" Said Nagito getting cut off by Chiaki.

"Komeda not right now." The small girl said.

"G-guys..." Chihiro sniffed. "Stop... Please.."

"Come on now yall are getting Chihiro upset!" Exclaimed an angry Mondo. "Ishimaru take them to the classroom so they don't cry."

"RIGHT!" Said Kyotaka before talking away with his arm around the trembling Chihiro.

"Damn you... DAMN YOU, WOMAN!" Screamed Togami as he slapped her.

I couldn't take it anymore. I ran off to the bathroom.

I opened the door and ran to a stall.

I started crying. "Third time today. How weak am I?"

My hands were trembling. I should be used to this by now. Right?

"Mom and dad used to get into fights like this all the time so why... Why am I crying?" I asked myself.

I covered my eyes. I wanted to go home. Should I just sneak back home? I don't want to deal with this. Togami is probably gonna be in trouble now because he was defending me. Crap. Sorry, Togami. Sorry, Makoto.

I sniffed. I wanted- no I needed to go home.

I sighed. I didn't want to do this but I had no choice. It had always made me feel better.

I pulled out my blade from my pocket. I always carried it around, just in case.

I hadn't cut myself in over a week but now. Now. Now I just broke my one-week streak of being clean.

I tried so hard yet I failed myself again.

I ran the blade down my wrist horizontally. I traced an old cut that was now a white scare. Man, watching that white line turn red is the best thing ever.

I dug the blade into my skin deep enough for it to be bleeding but not deep enough to kill me.

I went down and did the same thing 4 different times.

Look at how in control you are.

I took some toilet paper from beside me and cleaned myself up.

I held the toilet paper against my wrist until the blood stopped coming out as much.

There was still blood coming out so I wrapped some toilet paper around the area and pulled up my sleeve.

I sighed. That was the only thing that made me feel better.

I stood up and walked out of the bathroom.

Little did I know that someone else was in the stall next to me.

A/n: HEYY so first like chapter in this book that I kinda used to vent. I use writing to vent sometimes and it works :)

Song recemondation: Everblue by Omoinotake (Blue Period OP)