[Old] Never let go, Never Runaway (Oumasai)

Looking Out for You

Tw: SELF-HARM MENTIONG!!

"Shuichi... What...?" I asked in confusion. "What do you... What?"

He gave me a concerning look. "Please Kichi. Pull up your sl-" He got cut off.

"COME EAT!" My uncle called out.

"Phew," I said to myself.

"We're talking about this later," Shuichi said walking passed me.

I nodded and walked to the kitchen.

On the table was a big pot of spaghetti.

 "I hope this is ok. I just kinda cooked what we had in the cabinets." My uncle said.

Shuichi nodded. "That's fine. It looks good."

My uncle smiled. "Thanks."

"Mhm!" Shuichi said.

We all ate down and began to indulge in our plates of food.

It was well. Awkward. It felt as if any moment now, Shuichi was gonna tell my uncle about the self-harming shit.

I occasionally looked up at Shuichi who had a concerning face.

**

"Here let me help clean up." Said Shuichi.

My uncle shook his head. "No, you're my guest."

Shuichi shook his head. "Well alright."

Shuichi started walking to my room so I nervously followed.

With each step, the lump in my throat got heavier and heavier. I felt weak like I was stunned.

We got to my room.

Shuichi now sat in the same place he was before. I did the same.

We sat. No words coming out of our mouths. It was like an invisible force was keeping us from talking.

Finally, Shuichi said, "Alright. I don't want to hurt you. I don't wanna make you cry. I just wanna help you. Please? I can't make you show me but-"

I thought about it. I pulled up my sleeve. Yup. I wanted- no needed help.

There were multiple scares, some from a while ago and some from just a few hours ago.

Shuichi's face went pale.

"Oh." Was the only thing he could let out.

I felt ashamed. Soon the bricks came falling down. I couldn't hold it any longer.

I began to cry.

I hugged my knees. I didn't want Shuichi to see me like this.

I turned away from him. "I'M SORRY." I cried.

He wrapped his arms around my neck area. "Hey, it's ok. You're ok." Shuichi said in a calming tone. 

I began to cry more. "I'm- I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. Like... I don't know..."

"It's ok... Here come lay down."

Shuichi pat a spot on my bed.

I nodded my head and walked over to the bed.

I laid myself on top of the small bed.

I felt the sudden urge to rest. I mean, after crying all day I guess I'd be a little worn out.

I was about to doze off until I felt the presents of someone behind me.

I looked over to see Shuichi laying down beside me. My face went red. I turned back around.

He put an arm around my waist and, he scooted his body towards mine so now we were cuddling.

I felt safe in his arms. The was a sudden warmness surrounding only us.

I drifted into a soothing sleep.

**

I woke up. It was still night. Shuichi's tall body was gone.

I checked my phone. It was 11 at night.

"Ehg.." I let out. I laid down face first into my bed. I let my face land on my pillow.

In doing so, I smelt Shuichi's sent.

I smiled. I felt safe again. I drifted back into sleep again.

**

I finally woke up. My alarm was actually going off.

I sighed. 

"Today."

"Will be awesome."

**

a/n: OMFG I'm in math class rn and the annoying pick me bitches won't stop looking over my shoulder to see what I'm writing :1 that's why the chapter seems a bit stiff and short.

Song recommendation: Looking Out for You by Joy Again.