Unspoken reality

I Get What I Want

After i was shot shit got real. Everything changed. 4 months of no gg, no one to be there for me when i really needed them, not even my side hoes because a few of them were there at the party and i had no clue but they seen the incident and stopped fucking with me. I never thought id see the day gg would really leave me and my only intention was to get her back by any means nessessary. After my release i got the scoop on every detail of the clide's party and i wasnt happy nor was i mad. I guess the liquor made me react alittle more hostal then i shoulda been. I havent apologized to jay or gg but when i tried calling her she blew me off. The convo didnt go as i planned. Jay on the other hand i texted her a couple days ago because i was told it was her birthday. I asked her how she been and shit but the only response i got back was a thanks. Everyone was acting different to me.
I was home and really needed to smoke so i called up my bud man and waited for him to respond. I had been on zanex and perkasets for pain and anxiety since the shooting. Doctors suggested i needed them to live a normal life again. BULLSHIT. But i loved the feeling of them so i took them.
20 minutes later my bud man showed up. I rolled a nice fatty, relaxed listened to some music and just started thinking. My favorite song was on, Augest Alsina's Kissin On My Tattoo's call me corny i dont care but i was in my emotions and i couldnt get my mind off gisella. My gisella. My women. I decided to try and call her again.
"Hello? No baby i got it, just go make sure you get the bubble bath ready."
I looked at my phone making sure i had the right number and i damn sure did. First of all another bitch was answering my girls phone, secondly she was about to take a bubble bath with her? HELL NAH i wasnt playing this shit.
"WHO THE FUCK IS THIS? WHY YOU ANSWERING MY GIRLS PHONE! IM TELLING YOU WHEN I FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE AND I CATCH YOU BITCH YOUR DONE!" I screamed into my phone pissed off. This was just not happening to me right now. I let a slow tear come down my face.
"Listen shawty stop harassing my girl, you did enough damage to her, shes changing her number tommorow. And if you was smart and put shit together you would know who this was dumb ass. Gisella's happy now no thanks to you. I dont take to kind to threats, i beat your ass before and ill damn sure do it again my nigga im out!" The line went dead and i stood there speechless.
Who was this bitch? The voice didnt sound familiar and for her to say she beat my ass got me all puzzled, i aint never got my ass beat by anyone i always had the strap on me. My 9mm never left my side.
I decided to call up clide and see if he knew anything.
"Yo C bro, youll never believe the bullshit that just happened." I yelled into the phone.
"Aiight aiight my home skillet relax so i can understand you. Tell me wassup." As i explained the story to him repeating it only made me ten times more mad. I told him about calling gg and our conversation and how i felt and everything else.
"Damn lee, i dont know man. I havent talked to her and nither has lisa. I dont talk to hayden anymore but you knew that already. Have you called hayden to try and have her spill the beans?"
"Her numbers changed!"
"Damn, i got a couple people i know let me see if i can give them a call to try and get some information. Itll take alittle bit so ill hit you back before the end of tommorow. Please sis, dont do anything stupid ok? Swear to me yo on my kid!"
I shook my head, damn, this kid knew me way to well to say what he just said and make me swear on my niece but i had no choice.
"Aiight bro, i swear!"
"Aiight ill holla!" He said and hung up.
I threw my phone at the wall and sat back down. I didnt know what to say or do. Being foolish i called gg's number again. It went straight to voicemail so i tried again. Voicemail again this bitch shut her phone off. I needed to clear my head and relax so i popped my pills grabbed my car keys and took a long ride.
By the time i was calm it was 4:45 in the morning and i needed to get home safe. I could feel my body relaxing and i was not about to end up crashing. I turned the car around and quickly sped back to my crib. Thankfully i wasnt as far as i thought or it seemed like i was. I parked got out and headed straight to my bed. When i wake up i want answers and i wanted my gg one way or another i was bound to make it happen!