Unspoken reality

Overacting

My day with jenia yesturday was beyond words could even describe. I had the best time of my life and i couldnt imagine things getting any better untill we went home, had dinner and she gave me this beautiful 14k gold ring with a ruby red heart shaped stone in the middle. I got so excited when she opened the box that the ring was in. I thought she was going to propose but she hit me with "i dont want to scare you and move to fast so for now i want you to wear my heart on your finger." It was a corny ass line but it was cute so i accepted and didnt ruin the moment by telling her i wanted her to ask me to marry her. Today i was off to work untill 3:00 this afternoon. I checked my watch and i still had 2 and a half hours left of this boring ass shift. I had customers in my line left to right. My fingers where starting to actually hurt from hitting the same damn buttons on the cash register.

(3:30pm) I was stuck at work for a half hour later trying to get things cleaned up and settled for the girl who was going to take my place starting her shift. My phone went off letting me know i had a text. As i gathered my belongings from my locker in the back i read my text and it was from jay and from hayden.

Jenia- Hey beautiful, i hope work went well. Did you already leave because i was trying to surprise you and pick you up but i dont see your car here.
Me- No baby i didnt leave yet i got stuck for an extra half hour trynna get things organized. im leaving now, and i didnt take my car to work today, i took the bus, didnt feel like driving. Plus i had no gas.
Jenia- k, be waiting in the front.

Bestie- Hi i miss you, i feel as though there are some things i should get off my chest, your my bestfriend and i havent been as close as i should be lately because well lets just say because of things i should tell you face to face. Meet me at our old place.
I put my phone in my back pocket, i didnt know how to respond to hayden i think i was in shock or i was scared alittle to know what was going on. i closed up my locker and left. I couldnt wait to get the fuck out of here. When i walked outside my baby was right there just like she said she would be. I smile crept across my face as i got into her car.
"Hey baby, um actually i dont know what you planned but i was wondering if you could stop me by my house really quick. hayden sent me a really awkward text and said to meet her at the old house? i dont know why she said old house like we moved out or some shit but can you?"
Jay scratched her head and looked the other way.
"Babe thats not a good idea right now." she sounded nervous and i was wondering why.
"Jenia what do you have planned now? come on babe stop playing. Take me to my house."
"Im not playing gg. Its not a good idea. YOu know what ima let you know since everyone else knows. You have no house! it burned down, actually lee burned it down the night you were in the hospital, no one wanted to tell you because they knew you already had alot going on and that was the last thing you needed to be stressed out about. Me, hayden and denny have been handling things."
Water filled my eyes and i let each and everyone of them drop. So what i seen on the news was true.
"call hayden and denny tell them to meet us there! i dont want to hear anything else untill we get there jenia please just take me to my house!!!!" i screamed. she looked worried but right about now i didnt give a fuck. we put on our seatbelts as she made the call then drove off. The ride there was just as i expected SILENT!! WHY? because i was more pissed off then a bull at a got damn rodeo. How could my girlfriend let alone my bestfriend lie to me or better yet hide something like that from me? how could they think that well how could jenia think that distracting my mind would make things easier or better? i wanted to cry but out of anger and frustration. i could see the big empty lot. dust still in the air. we slowly pulled up to the house and before the car came to a complete stop i jumped out and ran to my, well what used to be a house. i fell to my knees and sat there staring at everything. memories, bad, good, everything and anything was racing like a roller coaster in my thoughts. Jenia sat by the car with her arms crossed looking helpless. if she didnt fix her fucking face she was gonna end up really helpless. denny and hayden pulled up and before i could snap back into reality my fists where swinging and hitting this bitches face. i dont know why, or how i managed to run so quick or swing so hard with out losing balance but it happened. Hayden was resisting to hit me back but that didnt last long. before you knew it we where scraping like two random bitches on the street with no words being spoken. Jenia and denny let it go for what felt like 5 seconds, such a buzz kill. They ripped us apart and pulled us our seperate ways but i wasnt done. i turned around and punched jay in the face to but she wouldnt let her grip go.
"baby you have a right to be mad so ima let that go but dont let it happen again!"
"fuck you, fuck you, and FUCK you - you dick jumping fake ass house wife wanna be dumb hoe! how could you! you lied to me, pretended to my face! you where supposed to be loyal to me! true to me! there for me!!! you are just selfish and ignorant, you all are, you all can go to hell!!!!!" i stormed off not giving a fuck where i was headed. Honestly after cooling down and walking around for a good five minutes i then realized i was being childish and i was wrong. i let my anger get the best of me and i shouldnt have but i had so much built up inside of me and so much tucked away, my past couple of weeks had been the worst my life could have ever gotten and i just took it out on the people who loved me and where there for me the most. tisk tisk shame on me whatever. By the time i was done cooling down i ended up infront of some sports bar and decided to stop and get a drink. Fuck an occasion i was doing it to numb my problems!

Shot after shot, after shot, after shot.
The whiskey was now in control!