I still didn't know how I'd managed to live through my 31-day post-Killian syndrome but for the past four weeks, everything hurt.
Fast forward to two weeks back when I had decided to move out of my mum's house.
I tried not to be bitter about how easily she had forgiven Killian and asked me to go back to him. I couldn't blame her for it. She'd always been conversational and believed a woman ought to remain with her husband at all times.
I wondered if that ideology would've changed if I had explained to her how he'd slapped my bottom so hard and wicked that they were sore for weeks.
God, I should hate him, but the truth was, I didn't. I couldn't, not with the way he occupied my thoughts.
I couldn't even escape him in my dreams. Torturous memories flashed through my mind every night and it didn't help that I'd forgotten my vibrators back at his place.
Nonetheless, I knew I still loved him more than he was capable of ever loving me back and a lopsided relationship would destroy me, not to mention set a terrible example for my child, and I knew I didn't have much to offer it yet but if there was one thing I was sure it wasn't going to lack, it was the love I had to give.
With that in mind, I willed all anxious thoughts of Killian Fobster away and tried to focus simply on my life.
I didn't need him.
I didn't need anyone.
I only needed my own two hands.
I was very good at withstanding difficulties and I'd spent the last week setting up a new independent life. I found a place near where I worked that offered month-long leases and signed the contract. I went shopping for apartment supplies with Lesley and before I knew it, I was living in my apartment.
A knock sounded on the door of my apartment door just when I stepped out of the kitchen with my microwaved piece of pizza.
I got this intense urge to snap a photo of it and send it to Killian. It would piss him off and I would take wicked pleasure in knowing he couldn't do anything about it.
The knock sounded again and I dropped the plate down on my coffee table.
Who the hell was that?
I walked to the door. Unfortunately, it didn't have a peeping hole.
"Who's it?"
"Delivery for Mrs. Fobster."
My heart skipped. No one in this area knew my last name.
I opened the door quickly, finding a young man holding a large cardboard box.
"Please sign here."
I gave him a double-take before signing for the package and taking it inside. The box was huge and surprisingly light. When I plopped down on the couch, I opened it, shocked to find a dress and a new pair of shoes sitting Inside.
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To have and to loathe
Romance18+ ❝ I'm a man of great restraint but seeing you like this is pushing the boundaries of my self control, so bad that I might just pin you against this wall and fuck the life right out of you. ❞ ******* San Francisco royalty, Killian Fobster is an e...