Worth It (N. Todoroki X Reader)

Chapter 12: Little Imperfections

I don't know why I called Natsuo and told him to come over after Fuyumi left. It's definitely an impulsive decision I regret making.

And what makes this just better is the fact that I invited him to stay the night.

Sweet Jesus I'm going to be the death of myself, oh my god.

So basically, I spent the next ten minutes sitting in a ball on my couch while I thought about my life decisions.

At this point I'm just a sitting duck.

I have no idea what to do.

How do I even approach this? Hey I found Yonda's number in your medical journal and saw that you had a ring design whats that about?

I can't even right now—

Oh my gooood he's here someone send help please.

I answered the door, greeting Natsuo with a quick kiss on the cheek and letting him in and thinking I was hiding my internal panic like the great actor I am.

Except apparently I wasn't because he noticed. And he asked about it. And I tried covering it up like the idiot I am.

Why do I even try at this point? Natsuo can literally read me like an open book, I don't understand why I put so much effort into trying to get him to not read me.

"Y/n, whats wrong?"

Oh, you know, I found out something I definitely wasn't supposed to know about and now I'm kinda freaking the hell out about it over here because like holy shit what am I even ready I don't know what I'm even doing with my life let alone whether or not I wanna get married what where did this come from.

You know, just the usual existential crisis. This is totally normal.

I shook my head. "Nothing. I think I'm gonna go to sleep, because, I'm tired."

That's a very trashy excuse oh my god.

But I mean it must've worked because I was in my room and flopped face down on my bed with the lights off, so I dunno.

But then it also didn't work because I heard a light knock on the closed bedroom door. "Can I come in?"

I let out what I think was supposed to be a muffled "Yes." Natsuo opened the door and, at least I assume he did this, stared at me for a few seconds before flopping down next to me and pulling me closer. "Alright, tell me what's wrong."

I shook my head like the child I am, trying to hide away from my problems and pretend they don't exist.

Guess what, Y/n. You're a whole adult now and can't do that anymore. Grown up life is so much fun! Definitely get older kids, life is so great.

"Please?" 

I shook my head again. "It's something I'm not supposed to know."

I'm not entirely sure why I said that. Maybe it was to give him somewhat of an idea to why I'm panicking and to not leave him completely in the dark. Maybe he'll know what I'm talking about.

"What are you not supposed to know?"

I shook my head, refusing to open my mouth and answer him again. I heard him sigh, then felt him leaving soft, lingering kisses along my arm. And for some reason I crumbled and told him some of it?????

"It's something in your medical notebook," I said, making sure it was extra muffled so he wouldn't hear me as clearly. "About a ring. It's nothing, though. It just kind of freaked me out because like why would you want to spend the rest of your life with me? Like what?"