Warning!!!: thoughts of suicide and self harm, mentions of dead family member!!!!
Also, this character doesn't have a name, so the gender identity and name is all up to you :)))
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Everytime I close my eyes my sleepiness fades
It's frustrating
My mind won't quit running
Running over my past conversations
Running over what my mother said last
Intrusive thoughts lie with me
What if I cut one more time?
If I jump, would I be happier?
It's driving me insane.
I look at my phone for the time
3:39am
Shit.
Maybe if I call someone, they'll help…right?
Bestfriend?
Nope, she never picks up.
Brother?
Forgot, he's dead
Billie?
I could try…
It rings about once or twice
"Hey baby." She says with a raspy voice
"Hi, love, I didn't expect you to pick up."
"Yeah, I turned on my sound in case you needed me."
I smiled.
"You ok though?" She asks.
"I just couldn't sleep, that's all."
"Aw, I'm sorry sweetheart, I could come over."
I sat up.
"Please?"
She lightly laughs
"Sure baby, gimmie about 5 minutes"
5 minutes later…
I stand up to open the door for Billie
"I missed you, love." I said while giving her a huge hug.
"I missed you too, baby." She said with a smile.
She let go of me, "now can we sleep cause it's like 3am"
"Alright" I said, maybe I'll sleep better with her around.
When we got to my room Billie changed into one of my oversized T-shirts and soon got in bed with me.
God she's adorable.
As soon as she laid next to me I drifted off to sleep.
Laying with her makes me forget the world and it's problems.
Mainly my problems
The loss,
The hatred for my mother and myself
All I feel is love when I'm with her
And that's how it's gonna stay
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Sorry for the bad ending :/
But spring break, yay.
As always thanks for reading
Love you all🤘🏾
Byeee<333
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Fanfictionjust imagines about billie eilish. Slowly turning into random poems though... Some of the characters don't have distinct genders or names so they can be whatever you want :) Also, most of these are put in a point of view of a person of color but lik...
