Little Miss Imperfect

Too Fast

Cw: abuse

                           ~Alissa~

I didn't want to go back into the house but I knew that there would be trouble if I didn't do so.

I quickly entered and ran up to my room knowing I should get some sleep before he got home. I changed into something I would not miss and tried to get some sleep. It didn't come.

I sat there all night and to my surprise my dad never came home.

I was getting ready as usual when he walked in. I was brushing through my hair and he grabbed me by the arm. "I will not have a gay person in my house!" He yelled as he twisted my arm. He threw me across the room and pinned me down with his foot. "There's nothing between us I promise!"
"You expect me to believe you no longer like her? Do you take me for a fool!"

He quickly removed the belt he was wearing and hit me several times with it.
At this point I was crying in a pool of my own blood.

"I never want such disappointment to step into my house again" he said as he walked out the door.

I didn't move. I sat there for what must have been hours until I heard her voice.

"Alissa! Alissa!"Luz shouted as she stumbled up the stairs. "Ali... " she stopped when her amber eyes landed on me.

"What happened!" She shouted as she ran up to me. "I... I'm not allowed here anymore" I mumbled under my breath.

She didn't say anything.Luz quickly got up and trudged into my bathroom. She soon reappeared with a first aid kit.

She sat back down next to me and got to work. She cleaned all my cuts, bandaged my my torso and redid my arm raps. Then gave me pain medication.

"Ok I'm done?, so what happened?" She asked in a worried tone.
"Can we talk somewhere else?"
"Yeah" she softly responded.

She helped me get up and out of the house. We were now in her car."So?" She gestured to my cuts."I guess I'm homeless now"

                               ~Luz~

I didn't expect that. "I'm homeless Luz and I don't know what I'm going to do" she started sobbing. I pulled her in. "Don't cry...shh" I told her softly.

"Now tell me what you mean by homeless."
"I can't go back... he hates me."
"Oh."

Alissa was sobbing in my arms. "You can stay with me,"I said reassuringly.
"Really?" She said softly.
"Yeah."

We sat there in silence for a while, then she sat up.
"Thanks Luz, I can't thank you enough" she mumbled.
I smiled at her and started the drive to my house.
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I stumbled into my small messy house with Alissa in my arms. I helped her to her feet before turning around. "I'm sorry about the mess" I said as I locked the door behind us.
"I don't mind," Alissa said as she sat down on my couch.

"Do you want to go to bed?" I asked her.
She nodded her head so I lead her to my room."You can have the bed and I'll sleep on my couch"
She looked at me questioningly. " It's fine," I reassured her.

I was about to leave when she said it.

"Luz did you look through my sketchbook?"

                         ~Alissa~

Luz just stared at me for a few moments. We stood in silence for a while then I blew up."Well? Tell me!" I shouted at her.
She didn't respond. "For Mara's sake just tell me!" I scolded. It was like a switch flicked and she lost her cool.

"I just wanted to help!" She finally shouted back. "Well maybe I don't need your help!"
"But I care about you Alissa!" She shrieked.
"No you don't!" I was screaming at the top of my lungs now.

"Yes I do!" And with that she grabbed my collar and pulled me into a kiss. This wasn't like the first one. It was harsher and more hungry. Her tongue slipped in with no hesitation.

She pinned me against the wall and I let out a small moan. Her arms moved down the side of my body and stopped at the bottom of my shirt.

It felt so right but I couldn't do this. I pushed her away. She stared at me hurt but it soon turned to anger. "Why did you do that?!" She angrily grumbled. "
I don't like you like that" I said trying to convince myself more than I was her. I could tell she didn't believe me.

"Why don't you love me?!" She screamed as tears streamed down her face.

"I didn't know that was allowed!" I shouted as I started crying.

I fell to the ground.Luz stared at me for a few moments. She sat down with me and let me cry into her neck.
"Of course it's allowed, baby" she said as she rubbed my back.

We sat there for what felt like hours until she finally spoke. "Who told you it wasn't ok?"Luz asked with caution.

I sighed. "My dad told me that it wasn't acceptable to like the same gender when I first came out." ... "He left some marks that day... I was only twelve." I muttered the last part as tears started to well up in my eyes.

"That must have been so confusing for a little girl," she said as she ran her hand through my hair.

Notes:
The last paragraph had a reference to Marceline from adventure time.

Alissa ended up cleaning Luz's apartment for her.