Hello Journal/Readers,
This is gonna be another very rantful chapter because shit has been pretty bad but luckily someone makes it better after school!! (George lol)
So anyway, I am kinda pissed at Ashton bc they apparently like Olive who is my crush. "Coincidentally" right after I told Ashton I like her. They are practically ruining my friendship with Olive. She used to always come over and sit with me in choir even if she wasn't supposed to now what does she do? Goes and sits with Ashton!! Am I jealous? Maybe. But it's so stupid bc Ashton told me that Olive likes me back just wouldn't say. That was fucking yesterday!! Now today they said that Olive doesn't so like what the actual fuck that's so stupid!!
I'm slightly pushing away from Ashton.
I don't say it but I'm so GLAD that they are moving away next year. They ruin everything!! My friendships, lunch, and a ton of other things they just make my life a lot worse by saying I don't care abt them or that I am pissed at them. It's like they don't trust me and they also said I have talked behind their back which I definitely haven't! I did like once and that was a complete joke I was saying they're clingy and shit but it was all a joke. It's very annoying like I know they have issues but don't put shit on me. Don't talk abt killing yourself on MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!
They also shouldn't complain to me that something isn't working out bc their life is not at all my problem. I can give advice every once in awhile but EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY!! I can't take that I have my own life. And YES IT'S BETTER THAN YOURS!! I have a better life probably bc I don't push down others with my problems.
I loved my life before meeting them and yes I still enjoy my life! It's just my day kinda gets worse bc they at lunch they start talking abt SH, SA, and su!c!de and shit like that. It doesn't really need to happen every single fucking day.
It just turns into a serious conversation and it can go from us joking around a ton to this serious conversation from one joke just like that.
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Not nearly as long of a rant as last time and btw Ashton is Chloe's new name. I didn't wanna keep deadnaming them no matter how much I hate them rn. And Olive is clearly my crush from my Choir class!
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