"I want to say sorry." Tumayo siya sa pagkakaupo niya kanina.
Bakit siya mag-so-sorry? Ano hoy?! Na-gui-guilty ka na? Na napahiya mo ako sa harap ni Tita kanian? Ulol mo!
"Waeyo?" I asked. I'm not sure if its because he's guilty. Maybe, it was the only reason kung bakit ako nagtatampo ngayon sa kanya. (Why?)
"You know, Asher, you can't just play with a person's feeling or either lying. You can either make them believe you or...in lying, the next thing you share them a news they'll never believe you. It has a bad effect, Asher."
Well...yeah. Talaga namang hindi tama ang pagsisinungaling.
Pero magaling ako diyan e.
Magaling akong mag-sinungaling sa mga naiisip at nararamdaman ko. Yung tipong nag-si-sinungaling ka sa sarili mo na hindi ka na nasasaktan, pangiti-ngiti ka lang, kaso ang totoo niyan durog na durog ka na sa loob. O di kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko I've moved on, kaso hindi...hindi ko pa rin siya nakakalimutan.
Kahit anong sinungaling ko sa sarili ko na napatawad ko na ang aking sarili, gabi gabi parin akong dinadalaw ng mga ala-ala ko sa mga nagdaang panahon. I can never stop thinking about it and it make me more sinner.
Alam ko sa sarili ko na sinungaling ako. Expert ako diyan kasi mismong sarili ko kaya kong lokohin.
Kaya kong ipagliban at bolahin ang mga nararamdaman ko to make myself happy. Masaya ako kasi kaya ko pang kontrolin ang pag-i-isip ko.
"Yeah. Lying...is bad...and never been good." Bulong ko na hanggang dinig lang naming dalawa. Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.
"Right." He nodded and smiled at me.
"Have you ever experienced lying?" I asked. Walang tao ang hindi pa nagagawa ang pagsisinungaling. Kahit pa sabihing kagalang-galangan.
"White lies?"
"Anything as long as it is a lie." Sabi ko at umupo sa may gilid ng aking bed. Lumapit siya saakin at naupo na rin. He sighed.
"Lie. I'm always lying to people that are asking for my occupation. I always tell them that 'I don't even have a work'..." He laughed sarcastically. "Back when I was in college, I don't have any friends but then...they found out my identity, that we own a hospital, that we grow money, they started to be friends with me. I always think they'll use me because I have the money. But its not always like that, some people do not base on the money you have, they base on looks. I even don't like that, basing on looks but don't know the real behavior of that person."
That's...so...so deep. Sa lalim ng kanyang sinabi napa-isip nalang din ako, kung bakit nakakatulong din minsan ang ating pagsisinungaling kahit na sabi ng iba...hindi daw mabuti ito.
Sometimes...lying can be useful. Pero hindi naman ibig sabihin 'nun ay dapat lagi ka nang nagsisinungaling. There different kinds of lying, white and black lie.
White lie, the harmless lie, the white lie comes out when the person don't want the other person's feelings to impaire. White lie don't hurt people's feeling not until they found out what you are hiding...
Black lie, worst kind of lying sometimes called as heartless egocentric and love to spite others, a person that uses black lie is selfish, self-centered and egocentric. They use this black lie to get out, or run out, of the trouble without thinking others that might get hurt...
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Roman d'amour‼️ONGOING‼️ They are both each other's home. Home where you can find your own peace. A home where you can relax. A home that matters to us the most. A home where you are surely protected. A home that's simply yours. A home that gives sense of securi...
