As I child, I always loved to learn,
I desired to see the world for what it truly was-
the biggest mistake of my life.
I grew up nice because they taught me too:
my parents,
teachers,
case managers and therapists.
Now I'm blue.
I'm more than blue - I'm the ocean,
storm-sensitive and tired of devotion -
been poisoned by oil and wrecked by boats.
My waves won't kill them,
but they'll never leave me alone -
they are threatened.
As a teen, I felt misunderstood,
I still loved to learn.
I wanted to discover why I struggled
because originally, I thought it was my fault.
Now I'm red.
I'm more than red- I'm a forest fire,
yelling with a voice so hoarse-
I burn their egos and enflame their porcelain
into plastic.
They hate me.
As an adult,
I'm blue, red, and even a bit gray-
teary-eyed self looking for a way
to just live.
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of crying,
tired of being an ocean
and a forest fire-
I'm purple.
I'm not just purple,
I'm blue and red and violet.
I'm anxious and privately violent.
All the water of the sea is in me.
All the flames are bottled up 'til
late nights when I explode,
sob and
fall asleep.
It's hard not being able to control
the things
that are engraved within me.
YOU ARE READING
You Have Influenced Me More Than I Can Imagine.
PoesíaTRAUMA. It shaped me. It's terrifying yet precious to me like ink embedded on my skin. These days I always ask myself, "How do I keep shining through the darkness of life?" You Have Influenced Me More Than I Can Imagine is a poetry book about my tim...
