Suicide; c.h

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Hey guys I'm sorry that I haven't been updating a lot it's because i have been busy and stuff and sometimes it's hard to write cause i still need to think of ideas for it so I am truly sorry for that.

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As the weeks went on I have started to get comfortable being around michael, luke and ashton and I've started to talk better as in louder and more

Today was like any other day, but today was the two month anniversary of me being in here

Every month they let visits happen so my mum came to see me

I mean I am still really pissed off at her for bringing me here but I love her cause she was trying to help me and be a supportive mother

She was really emotional as well which made me cry a bit I wish I could get out of this place though

I just want my normal life back where I was happy and be back with my friends
But it's just all changed and it's messing with my head

I lay here on my bed, it's midnight and I'm guessing everyone's asleep

I heard my door creek open slowly I quickly pulled the covers over my body and pretended to sleep

I expected it to be a doctor just making sure that we were sleeping but then someone grabbed me and shook me lightly

"Calum" I heard someone say

I opened one eye before sitting up

"What the what, luke what are you doing" I asked confused

"Wanna come with me and michael for a walk" he asked smiling

"Where too?" I asked back

"Well I know this place, there's this playground that they have here and it's outside at the back and only curtain people get to come here and well I know how to get there" he grinned

"Um sure" I say and get up from off the bed

I looked to the door and saw michael waiting patiently

I smiled at him and waved and he waved back

I saw luke walk over to ashton and ask him and he said yes

Luke and michael where all in black and luke told us to do the same so we did because luke wanted to feel like real ninjas

We walked down the corridors while luke was guiding the way

We reached a bunch of stairs which we had to walk down cause it would be too Risky to take the elevator as it would make noise and someone would catch us

When we made it all the way to the bottom of the stairs we went through a door that lead us to the playground spot at the back

It was really nice to finally be out side in the fresh air

It felt like I could finally breath properly and feel alive

The playground was simple it just a set of swings, a single side and some monkey bars

I sat on the swing and michael sat on the other swing

Luke walked up behind me and started to swing me, which I didn't mind at all since I'm starting to get more better being around luke

As luke swung me back and forth I closed my eyes a bit feeling the air hit my skin

Michael then got pushed by ashton

We were on the swings for like 20mins just randomly talking about anything really

Then we sat down on the grass just happy that we got out of the place for a bit

I mean we would have to go back but this is really nice and I'm trying to make the most of it kinda thing

We Laid back on the grass and I turned to face luke who was already facing my way

"Hey" he said

"Hey" I replied

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Lol what if I turned this into a cake fanfic lol

Anyways please comment on what you think and maybe tell me if I would improve on something's (no hate though) and yeah go vote that would mean a lot thanks.

P.s sorry if there's some spelling mistakes