Suicide; c.h

1.1

"Calum I have a plan" Luke said out of nowhere while he was fiddling with his fingers

"What is it" I asked raising an eyebrow

"I say in about three weeks time we should escape from this place" Luke said

"What" I asked confused

"We should escape from this place in about three weeks which should give us enough time to make a plan" he explained

"I don't know Luke what if we get caught"

"Calum trust me well be okay"

I thought for a minute thinking if this is actually a good idea "uh yeah okay let's do it" and then Luke smiled at me "so what about Ashton and Michael" I asked

"Uh they'll be okay here" Luke shrugged

"Okay" I said "just you and me I guess"

I looked at the time and it was 7:57 "it's nearly 8 I guess we should be heading back to the rooms" I said picking myself off the ground

"Yeah okay" Luke replied

Luke and I walked down the hallway to the rooms

"Hey Calum do you wanna come in my room for a bit and just hang out some more" Luke asked looking at the ground "yeah sure luke" I replied smiling at him

"Okay cool"

We walked silently to his room and we sat on the bed and started talking

"Calum" Luke said
"Luke"

"The voices in my head are talking to me right now and I don't know if i can take it anymore" I saw tears well up in Luke's eyes

"Luke what are they saying to you"

"There're saying that your gonna get hurt and I'm scared Calum I don't want you to get hurt"

"Luke it's gonna be okay I'm not gonna get hurt don't let the voices get to you everything's gonna be fine we gonna get out of this place and we're gonna be alright me and you Luke were gonna get out and become successful in life together I'll always be here for you Luke everything's gonna be fine I promise" i said rubbing Luke's back

"Thanks Calum"

I leaned over and gave Luke a hug and he hugged back, I heard him sniffle and I felt wetness on my shoulder and knew that it was tears

We ended up laying down on the bed and I waited till Luke fell asleep until I left going back to my own room and laying down trying to get sleep

Which was hard because I wasn't feeling tired at all

"Calum" Ashton said from his bed

"Yes Ashton"

"Night" he said

"Night Ashton" I laughed
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I woke up sweating I don't even know what's happening and I'm crying like crazy, what the hell is happening

"Aghhhh" I yelled from sadness and frustration

Why was I hear I can't be hear anymore it's not helping at all

"Fuck fuck fuck fuck" I kept repeating

I soon found myself banging on Luke and Michaels door

"Luke" I yelled through sobs

"Luke"

I kept banging on the door as I feel to the floor on my knees sobbing

I had no idea what was happening to me but it felt bad it felt really bad

"Calum Calum what's wrong" Luke quickly ran out the room to me

"I can't do this Luke I wanna die i don't want to be here" I screamed, I started to fell dizzy and weak

"Luke, luke I think I think I- i lo-" and with that I fell into deep darkness

•Luke•

"Calum you think you what Calum what's happening" I quickly said "someone help help please" I yelled

I saw a bunch of doctors run over to Calum and pick him up taking him away from me

•Calum•

"W-what's happening to me" I said looking around as I laid on a bed that was currently being pushed by doctors and into a small room

"I don't feel so good" I said

"Shhh calum" a doctor said

"Wait what" I said "what's happening to m-" and suddenly it went all black again
.

What's happening to me how come I can see myself sleeping, I'm so confused where's Luke where is everyone

I walked over to my body and tried shaking me but it's like my hands went straight for it

I saw Luke walk in with his eyes on my body

"Calum if you can hear me please just please give me any kind of sign please calum" he said grabbing my hand in his

"Luke I'm right here I'm fine" I said to him but he didn't even look at me

"It's been three days since you fell in your coma Jesus I hope your okay"

Wait what I'm in a coma but how, how the hell did that happen to me

"Luke" I yelled "Luke I'm here" I yelled again but he still couldn't here me