Suicide; c.h

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Luke's P.O.V

it's been a month since Calum has fell into a coma, yes a month

I visit him everyday when I get the chance and talk to him even though his lifeless looking bodies never responds

I know he's gonna make it through this and I just really hope he wakes up soon because I feel so lonely and abandoned, I got so close to Calum that he is my best friend he's so caring and nice, his the greatest person I have ever met

I also can't help but think that him falling into a coma was my fault, all the voices in my head told me to stay away from him or they'll hurt him, but I listened to Calum and tried to ignore all of the voices and try my best to stay calm but it didn't work one bit

It's all my fault I should really stay away from him yet I'm being so selfish and putting his life in danger but I just can't help it, I hate being away from him, he makes me so happy and I feel likes he is always there for me

"Luke" Ashton said pulling me away from my thoughts

I looked up raising an eyebrow up

"Um you okay?" He asked looking deeply into my eyes searching for something

"Uh yeah I'm fine"

"No Luke like I mean are you really okay?" He asked with so much worry and concern in his voice

But then I cried I let out my tears that I've been holding in these past few weeks, I was bottling up all my emotion and now I'm like a depressed llama (omg llamas I loveeee llamas)

"It's okay Luke let it all out, sometimes this is what you need, you need to cry let it out before you explode and destroy yourself completely" Ashton rubbing my back trying to comfort me and make me feel like I'm not alone

It was soon time to go to group therapy which I really didn't want to go to, I looked horrible, i had tear stained cheeks followed by red puffy eyes from all the crying i had down

I apologised to Ashton for getting his t-shirt wet from his tears but Ashton kept reassuring me that it was totally okay

The day had gone on very slowly, it was so boring just like any other day really but today all I wanted to do is sleep

Right now I was in the stupid ass cafeteria eating the crusty as good they have, like the chicken nuggets weren't even cooked properly and the other foods literally look like my runny shit

I decided just to eat a sandwich that actually looked like it was a few days old

I also had a cup of apple juice which I drank all of it in like 3 seconds and that made me really need to pee

"Um I'll be back" I said standing up and wiping my hands on my pants

Michael nodded and so did Ashton smiling

I walked off into the empty hallway and walking slowly, I started to hear footsteps behind me but I just brushed it off thinking not much off it

The footsteps got louder and that made my head snap around but then to my surprise no one was there which kinda freaked me out

I turned into the bathroom and went and did my piss but as I was washing my hands I looked up into the mirror and there he was, Calum was standing behind me smiling

"Calum?" I slowly/quietly said but I turned me head around and he wasn't there he disappeared and so I turned my head to the mirror and nothing, shit this has really got my mind messed up I'm starting to see Calum what the hell

I rushed out of the bathroom and thought maybe I should go and see Calum

I walked to the room that he was in and opened the door to find that he wasn't even in the room it was just a bed and no body on the bed

"What?" I whispered to myself

A doctor walked past me "um do your know where Calum Hood went he was the one in this room?" I asked kind of afraid of the answer

"Oh he is at a medical hospital getting proper help"

"Wait what, what happened to him"  I asked quickly getting nervous

"I don't know if I'm allowed to talk to you about this sir" the doctor said and started walking off

"Wait, wait, please he's my best friend and in his I need to know please you don't understand" I pleaded

The doctor sighed "okay but don't tell anyone in the person who told you okay" he raised his eyebrows and I nodded quickly "okay well he woke up and he was confused and freaked out it then he ended up having a seizure"

I froze "I'm I allowed to go see him?"

"I'm afraid not you'll have to wait till he gets back" and then the doctor walked off with out letting me respond

I was honestly shocked I didn't know what to do, I need to make sure he is okay what if I never see him again, wait but he said he'll be coming back so that's good, but what if something bad like really bad happens to him before he gets back

All these questions and no answer, I was scared

Luke

I heard my name and i turned around and no one was there

Luke

I turned around again

Luke

My name was being repeatedly said and I kept turning in ever different direction

"WHAT" I screamed with my hands on my ears

Did you miss us

"Go away" I whispered

How about no

"What do you want from me"

Don't talk to Calum or we'll hurt him

"What no you can't do that" my eyes were filling up with tears

Oh trust me, we can and we will

"He's been through enough just leave him alone please, I'm the one you should be hurting not him"

No Luke we want Calum not you

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT HIM FOR" I screamed, tears now coming out of my eyes, I was holding my hands over my ears trying to block them out but it was useless I could still here them because the voices were in my head and I couldn't do anything about it

We want him dead

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I edited all my other chapters and edited this one but I probably missed some so please don't hate me :) :/ thanks guys for reading by the way like I'm actually so happy because of it thankssss