Suicide; c.h

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Luke and I sat at a four seated table in the free time room playing cards while Michael and Ashton were doing random things

The sound of the radio playing in the background, the song sounded like 80's classical music which actually kind of made me feel sleepy

"Luke" I suddenly said
He look up from his cards and smiled "yeah Calum"

"Do you know when your getting out of this place" I asked I didn't know why I thought about this right now but I guess I'm just gonna miss him if I leave before him or if he gets out before me

"Uh well I'm actually not to sure but the doctors said I've been getting better so like I guess maybe it's gonna be soon hopefully but to be honest the voices are still in my head so I don't know anymore" Luke shrugged "why"

"Uh I don't know just a random question, I guess I'm gonna miss you"

Luke smiled "don't worry we will still stay friends no matter what"

"Yeah we better"

Luke had his sleeves rolled up his arm and I looked at his arm and saw scars, I felt sad because someone as sweet and nice as Luke has these things happening to him

Luke must of noticed me looking at them so he quickly rolled down them

"Sorry" I whispered
"Not it's fine Calum you don't have to apologise" Luke smiled slightly "anyways it's your shot"

"Oh yeah right" I shook my head slightly putting down a card and waiting for my turn to happen again
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"Night cal" Ashton whispered while getting comfortable in his bed

"Night ash" I replied back closing my eyes trying to get sleep
I haven't been sleeping well lately and I don't know why I just can't seem to sleep probably

About 30 minutes of laying in my bed trying to keep my eyes close and keep still I finally fell asleep

"Calum" I felt someone shake me "Calum please wake up" it sounded like they were crying "calum" they shook me again and I bolted up

"Luke?" I rubbed my eyes and he was crying
"Calum I can hear them again it won't stop" Luke said sobbing quietly and shaking his head while he tried ripping his hair out from frustration

"Luke it's okay calm down" I tried helping him "Luke breath just don't let it get to you breath maybe think of something happy like maybe when me and you had that race down the hallways and I tripped and did a 360 flip remember that was so funny we all couldn't stop laughing" I said rubbing his back

I heard Luke chuckle while he continued to cry

"Here Luke come lay down" I said putting the stop next to me

"I'm sorry Calum" Luke sniffed

"No luke don't be sorry it's totally fine"

Luke laid down next to me and we ended up spooning, Luke being the small spoon, this may seem a bit you know gay but right now I honestly don't care right now all I care about it Luke and making him happy again

"Calum" I heard Luke say

"Yeah luke" I replied

"Thanks a lot" he said rubbing his eyes

"For what" I asked confused

"For everything and for right now your so nice to me your like my best friend Calum"

"Aw Luke your like my best friend too I feel like I can trust you a lot now" I smiled

"Goodnight Calum" Luke said

"Goodnight Luke"

And with that we fell asleep next to each other and that made me even more comfortable with Luke
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"Yo Calum, Luke" Ashton said

I stretched out my arms while Luke ended up doing the same

"Yeah" we said at the same time to Ashton

"We've got 5 minutes till we have to be at the cafeteria so get up and get ready" Ashton said before leaving the room

"Uh can I just wear some of your clothes and get dressed here...?" Luke asked "that's if your okay what that"

"Oh yeah that's totally fine with me" I said getting "Ill just go have a quick shower then you can have one while I'll get some clothes for you, yeah?"

"Yeah that's cool"

I grabbed my towel and walked into the shower after it warmed up and washed my body and quickly got out and let Luke have a shower

I got dressed and picked out some boxers and socks and a plain black t shirt and a pair of black skinning jeans for Luke and left them on the bed for him

When Luke got out the shower I told him that the clothes were on my bed

I went into the hallway to wait for Luke

"Hey Calum" Luke said walking out the door

"Hey Luke you look nice" I smiled
"thanks cal" he laughed

We walked into the cafeteria and went to the line for food and then we went to the table that we usually sit at with Michael and Ashton

"So did you and Luke have a nice sleep" Ashton chuckled and I looked at Luke as he looked down at his food blushing

"Yeah it was the best sleep ever" I smiled at Luke making him less embarrassed and he smiled back at me