Suicide; c.h

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Today I have school and my parents are practically forcing me to go

But I don't want to go I'm getting to depressed and stressed

I tell myself everyday that it's my fault for her death

It's been about 4 weeks since she committed suicide

As I walk into the school grounds not many people talk they just whisper

I saw Darren

"Hey cal" he said

"Don't talk to me" I brush past him

"Oh calm down" he said

"Don't fucking tell me to calm down someone special to me died and your telling me to calm down" I said "and of cause you wouldn't give two shits because your a complete dick"

"I didn't know" he said

"Well know you do so fuck off" I said he walked away from him (like a boss)

I got to class and sat quietly at my seat waiting for the teacher to arrive

"Morning class" the teacher finally arrived after what seemed like hours but it was actually 5 minutes

"Well I guess Louise isn't here today again" she said then everyone laughed

The thought of Louise makes me want to cry

I don't know why I'm so emotional over her

At first we had an "argument" sorta thing then she killed her self and it's all my fault

"Well you know why she isn't here" I said standing up

Everyone stopped and looked up at me real confused ways

"Why then" the teacher said crossing her arms

"She fucking committed suicide okay are you happy she's gone now" I said, tears welling up in my eyes getting ready to spill

Gasp where heard and "oh god why"s

"Because she was depressed and all you guys did was make it worse and now she's gone I hope yous are happy" and with that I left the class room with tears running down my cheeks

I ran out of the school crying and I ran onto the streets

Running home

I got to the door and opened it fast and slamming it shut behind me

"Calum?" my mum asked looking confused

Put I didn't listen I walked straight past her into my room locking the door behind me

I fell onto my bed and immediately shut my eyes

In no time I was sleeping

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I woke up and checked the time it was 8:47

I then remembered what happened a few hours ago

I lay still, looking up at the ceiling

I was probably staring at the ceiling for 10 minutes

Just staring and thinking about life

wondering what it would feel like if i killed myself

whats it like grabbing a rope, tying it up and then me taking that one last breath

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Oh no calum don't do it

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