Suicide; c.h

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Louise 〉〉〉

"Morning class" Mrs M said as she walked into the class room putting her stuff down on her desk

"Morning Mrs M" I mumbled while everyone else said it really happily

"Today, well I have a surprise" she said and I slowly looked up

It's probably another lame ass new kid because that's what she says every time we have a new person

"Yes, this is Calum" as she said that a boy walked into the room

The boy, well calum gave a little smile to everyone

"Take a seat anywhere you'd like" she said and calum gave her a little nod

The only seat left was next to me, I sit all the way at the back of every class I have all the time. I have no friends everyone at this school hates me and soon calum will probably hate me because people will tell him all kinds of things about me

As he sat down I shifted in my chair uncomfortably

I didn't take much notice in him or class, I just put my head down on the table in my arms and closed my eyes

Home group was the class we went to in the mornings and get our names called out to make sure we are at school then after our names where called out we practically got to do what we want but obviously I just sit with my head down waiting for the class to finish

After home group was finished Everyone walked in their little groups but I was by my self and so was calum since he was new here

What if I try make him my friend so at least one person likes me

Nah I can't he's probably like the rest of them

Our next class was science with Mr white

"Now I want everyone to get into a group of three" Mr white instructed

Oh great

I didn't move from where I was standing and I just looked at everyone getting into groups, then I saw that there was a group of two and I was the only one left

But I stayed standing

"Is everyone in a group of three" Mr white asked looking around

The two girls that I extremely hate said no

"Louise" the teacher started "please join their group"

I looked over at them and they started whispering to each other

I felt everyone's eyes on me as I sat next to the girls in my group

I heard the girls whisper some more and I bet you anything they are talking about me

"Okay well we going to be making slime out of corn flower" Mr white told us

"You need one cup of corn flower and you need a quarter of a cup of water and also you need a stick so you can mix it, so two people from your group come up and get the stuff you need" he instructed

I looked at the girls and they gave me a dirty look

"You can get all the stuff" one of them rudely said to me

I know if I started an argument I won't win and I know that even the teachers hate me like what have I down wrong

I sighed and got up walking over to where the corn flower and measuring cups were

I got the stuff I need. I had the corn flower and the mixing stick in one hand the the water in the other

As I was walking someone walked past me and bumped into me making the stuff go all over me, i gave out a little scream

I looked up to see who it was, It was my ex, his name is Darren

He gave me a little smirk and started laughing a bit and so was everyone else

I felt tears rolling down my cheeks as I just stood there

I quickly ran out of the class, running to the bathroom looking at myself

Why am I even still alive? why am I still here on earth? why does this happen to me? I wish I could just die right now

I started full on sobbing like a little girl

I hate this, I hate everyone, I hate myself

I washed everything off my face and fixed my hair and tried to fix my make up because it smudge from the water and when I was crying

It was still on my clothes and I need new clothes but where the hell am I gonna get new clothes from

I started walking to the office and asked them for new clothes because mine were all wet

They handed me a pair of new clothes and I walked back to the bath room to get changed

After that, I went to my bag and put my old clothes in it

I don't think I'm ready to go back to class

So I grab my phone and I walk all The way to the end of the oval

I sat down where I usually sit which is under a tree and its shady. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and put my ear phones in

Soon later I heard the bell go, which is for lunch

I don't eat at all because I'm to fat

I saw loads of people walking out of their class rooms onto the oval or the court yard bit and boys playing basketball and playing football while girls sat in their groups talking

And well then There's me the loner that everybody hates

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Later that day the bell went for us to leave and all day I literally just stayed on the oval listening to music on my phone

I got up so I can go to my bag which was in class

When I got there only a few people where still there including calum

I got my bag and started walking down the corridor

"Hey um Louise right?" I heard a voice behind me say I slowed my walking down but I kept walking and nodded my head

"Well I'm calum as you may already know" he said putting a hand out for me to shake

I don't really like shaking people's hands but I didn't want to seem rude so i shook his hand

"Um well are you alright from what happened before" he asked walking beside me

I wanted to say no but I didn't want to bother him with my problems so I nodded

"Are you sure cause you don't seem alright" he said

"Can you please stop I already told you I'm fine that kind of stuff happens to me everyday of my life I'm used to it now" I say a little to harshly

"Wow geeze calm down I was just asking if you were okay don't need to be a bitch about it" calum said and chuckled a bit

I stopped walking and looked at him I felt my eyes filling up with tears getting ready to spill

"I don't need any of your shit okay I rarely even know you and you don't know me so don't go calling me a bitch" I said as some tears came out

I turned my body away from him and walked fast away from him

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Woah calum you messed up

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