Suicide; c.h

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It's been a week and I haven't spoken to anyone since that day of what happened in science and what happened between me and calum

That's also because I haven't been to school because I don't want to go that place its hell and I can't stand being there

It's Friday and the time is currently 4:53

My mum left some money on the bench for me today since she won't be back till 12

So I guess I'm on my own again

I decide to go to the café down the road from my house because I feel like a nice coffee

I got ready and walked down the road to the café

I walked into the café and then to the counter to order my coffee

"Hi what would you like" a young girl said behind the counter smiling

I gave a little smile in return "um yes I would like a regular coffee please"

"Sure that'll be $2.30"

I nodded and got out some money and handed her the right amount

"It will be ready shortly" she said and walked away so she could make the coffee

I looked around and not many people were here today which is good for me bc I hate people (:

I waited a little more and soon my coffee was ready

I took a seat next to the window, taking a sip of my coffee

I put in my ear phones and stared blankly at well nothing cause it's all just a blur to me like it's messed up just like my life

I felt a light tap on my shoulder

I looked up looking at a familiar face, oh great it was calum

I sighed looking at him sternly

I watched as he took the seat in front of me so we were facing each other

I didn't even blink

"Um well I just wanted to say in sorry for what happened" he started "I didn't know what I was saying it just came out i didn't mean to call you a bitch because your not"

I just kept looking at him. like I don't even know him that well, he's already called me a bitch and I can't stand even being near him but I'm still here looking at him while he's waiting for an answer

I can't take this I'm about to cry like what even, why do I get so emotional over the smallest things. I'm gonna have a panic attack if I don't leave soon

Oh shit

My breathing starts getting faster and my heart is racing

Okay yep I really got to leave

I quickly got up not wanting him to see me like this and I quickly ran out the café leaving calum really confused

'Calum's p.o.v'

I sat there really confused about what the hell just happened

Is she scared of me? she must hate me. why is she like this? what's wrong with her?

I really wanted to know more about her...

I pulled out my phone, and started texting one of my friends his name is Darren

Me: hey can we talk?
Darren: yeah sure come to my house

I got up and walked out into the streets, going in the direction of Darren's house

Later on I finally reached my destination

I knocked on the door a few times, waiting for someone to answer it

"Hey" Darren said opening the door

"Hi" I replied walking into the house

"So what was it you wanted to talk to me about" he asked while we walk upstairs to his room

We got to the room and I shut the door behind me as I entered

"Louise" I said

"Oh her why her" he asked weirdly

"Why is she so sad all the time what's wrong with her"

"Well she's a slut and she doesn't deserve to be loved by any human on this earth" he said casually

"Why" I looked deeply into his eyes

"Because you know what two girls found her having sex with the gym teacher everyday" he said "and you know what we were dating at that time"

"How do you know that those girls weren't lying" I said

"Because I know"

"You know you really gotta be careful on what you hear about a girl, it's either a boy that can't get her or from a girl the can't compete with her" I said and walked out of the house still thinking about Louise (idek what that speech is. If you don't like the speech then blame calum okay bc he said it)

'Louise's p.o.v'

I went to this near by park and went under a tree

I pulled my knees into my chest and just broke down into tears

I can't take this no more I want to die I need to die

I got up and went straight home and into the bathroom locking the door behind me

I got out all the stupid pills I could find and I put them all in my hand

I took a deep breath wondering if I should do it

Well hell yeah I should do it what am I thinking I'm not worth anything is this crazy fucked up world

I shoved all the pills in my mouth and swallowed

My vision started to blur and I started getting dizzy, my legs started wobbling

I started crying

I slide my body down the down and sit crying until I longer can see

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Woah um okay that's weird like idk mind blow ?????

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