I'm the Alpha's Mate

Chapter 6

Staring into the mirror above the counter, I sigh. Anxiety caused by all this is keeping me from leaving the room. What if she is out there? What if she tells me that I can never go home? I cannot stay in here and curse myself continuously for wandering over the stream and throwing myself into this mess. Wishing it never happened will not get me out of this situation.

My mate, gosh she is intimidating, just her eyes have me begging for mercy. There is not enough courage inside of me to stand up to a woman like her, and that is not even acknowledging that she is an Alpha. "How could you do this?"

"What have I done?" She softly asks, though, she knows what, I am sure of it.

Glancing to the side, I see her looking at me with the same eyes that she always has, even since I was a child. Every time I peer into them, they bring me back and remind me of times not so pleasant before my grandmother took me in. "Why now?"

"The choice was yours."

"It hardly was, not with all the feelings poking at me to cross over. You know that I barely had a choice. Now, look where I am. How do I get back home?" The moon goddess says simply, "Yeji, you are home. Finally, a place where you can be accepted."

I swallow. "My own parents couldn't accept me. What makes you believe this woman you have placed me with will? Because she is my mate? It doesn't make sense. My own mother kept me hidden, so why should she listen and believe me?"

I was a child, watching the other pups playing, laughing, crying, shouting outside. I watched from the window alone, as I was often by myself. They would tell me that the attic was a safe place, a place where no one could hurt me, yet there I was more hurt than ever. As a child, I felt abandoned, left in a room, and forgotten about by the two people who are supposed to love me the most. They never saw me as their child after I told my mother, only a secret to be hidden and kept from the world, but for what? What was the point in keeping me alive if I could not live?

I stayed in the attic, pretending I was normal, pretending that I was the child they longed for.

I had no one but the moon goddess to talk to, to play with. My mother set up a bed and dresser for me, even a toy box with dolls and such. Though I often did not want to play with toys, the other children in our pack. As I watched them from the window, I would imagine myself there with them, wrestling, learning, embracing childhood as a werewolf, something unique. I guess I was too unique.

I did not know that no one could see her, or talk with her. I thought it was normal.

"You are strong," Lucy tells me, coming out from her corner. I nod my head and turn towards the bedroom doors.

I peek into the hallway and see no one. After taking a calming breath, I quietly sneak down the hall until I reach the same stairs Lia leads me. Once at the bottom, I hear voices.

"She did, I saw her when she first came in."

"Well, what does she look like?"

"She's a pretty girl, but she seems a little off. I don't know, not normal." Are they talking about me?

Before I can listen any longer, the voices grow too close, they are coming around the corner. Immediately I head off in the opposite direction, away from the staircase, but I am not fast enough. "Hey, it's you," the familiar voice calls out to me, and when I reluctantly turn around, I see the boy who opened the door, the one standing there when the dog ran out. "Where were you going?" He asks.

"Uhh, I'm not sure."

There is another guy standing beside him, watching me.

"You're my sister's mate."

The boy is Alphas' brother. I did not think of my mate having a family before, though the idea of it is quite obvious. She must have parents, and a brother is normal I suppose. The boy does not look much like the Alpha though. "Yes, I am."

"I was just on my way to get you. My sister wants to see you," he tells me. "I'm Soobin."

"Yeji."

He nods and the boy beside him drifts away without saying a word. Soobin glances at him, then back to me. "I'll take you to her."

Deciding to take a risk, I caught his attention. "Wait, I have to get back to my grandmother. She doesn't know where I am. Your sister, the Alpha, said I could go."

"My sister said you could leave?"

"Well, yes. We made a deal," I explained. "Now can you point me in the direction of the door, oh, and the stream also if you can?"

Soobin does not seem convinced. "You better talk to her about it. She just told me to go check on you, take you down if you're ready."

"Alright. Fine. Take me to her."

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