I'm the Alpha's Mate

Chapter 11

"Join your pack?" I repeat her as if her statement is now my question.

Her glances up at me, and I feel her eyes study my body, seeming to do everything so smoothly like it is natural.

"Where's the restroom?" I ask quickly and rush out of the room after Ryujin tells me it is just down the hall. I close the door behind me and suck in a deep breath, needing to talk to someone very specific.

I turn the faucet on and cup the cool water in my hands before drenching my warm face. My eyes peer up into the mirror, causing me to step back when I find myself peering back at myself. I should have expected this to join my mate's pack as I am supposedly the Luna. Could this all be happening too quickly? I have not spoken to my grandmother yet, what if she says no? Does she have the authority to stop me from joining this pack? Probably not.

I groan and lean against the bathroom wall. How am I supposed to be a Luna when I have no clue what a Luna does? How am I supposed to be a part of a pack when I cannot remember how they work? Did I ever know how they work? I was trapped in an attic for most of my childhood, a time when many children learned these types of things

"What am I supposed to do?" I mumble into the empty space in front of me.

"Calm down, this should not be a difficult process." Beside me in the mirror is the moon goddess, and she is glowing more than ever. "Are you not happy?" She asks, not understanding why I feel this way. I let out a short sigh and turned to face her. "I guess, I mean something about her just, just all of this is happening so quickly. In another second I'll be part of a pack again and."

"It is not the same, Yeji."

I look away from her, not believing her words. "It is history repeating itself, or at least it will be. I can keep this from my grandmother, but my Mate, from what I know, it should be a million times more difficult. I couldn't keep it from my mother and look at what happened."

"I speak the truth when I tell you it is not similar. There is no reason why you should believe he will react in such a way."

"There are a ton of reasons why I should believe it," I argue back. "No sane person would believe me. She'll think I'm crazy just like everyone else."

She pulls away. "Come, your grandmother will arrive any second."

I do not enjoy it when we argue, as it is always started by me and my insecurities. The moon goddess is usually right, but this time it is hard for me to trust her. My mate, Ryujin, does not seem like the type of person who would believe my nonsense. How am I expected to move on if she does indeed find me unstable and crazy? She might as well be wishing for a different mate, someone who could understand her life and her issues.

Mates are supposed to fit together, to connect, but I fear that we will never be able to all because of who I am. Ryujin is handsome, intimidating, and an Alpha and I worry that I am not enough. It is too early to tell now, but soon she will see that I am unworthy.

Opening the bathroom door, I come to a halt when I notice Hanbin standing on the other side. He looks to be rather uncomfortable, as he must feel guilty for what happened earlier. "Your grandmother is here."

He was given the orders, I understand that. I wish he knew that it was not his fault, as the shooting fiasco was primarily mine. I like to think of a good cause.

Hanbin leads me back towards the living room, and the first person I notice is my grandmother with her arms crossed sitting on the couch. When she spots me, relief washes over her aged face. "Oh thank goddess," she breathes out and rushes towards me.

Immediately, she reels me with a tight hug and many kisses on my cheeks. "My Yeji, you're okay. What on earth did you get yourself into?" For a little, old lady, she can surely pull off a you-are-in-trouble glare. "What happened to your head? Did these men hurt you?"

"No, no, it was an accident-something happened, but everything is okay now."

"Alright," she says uneasily. "You have to come home with me right away, and you're dreaming if you think I'm letting you venture-"

"I can't." I swallow, dizzy feelings from earlier seem to be surfacing again. "I found my mate." Her face shifts to a rather blank expression. "What?"

"I've found my mate here." She sits back down, obviously needing a moment to process my words. "You're mate, she's here?" Her eyes look at Hanbin. "The Alpha had to step out for a moment, there was a small problem on the west border," Hanbin explains, defusing any of her questioning thoughts.

"T-The Alpha? Alpha is your mate?" I grab onto her hand. "Yes, grandma."

"Oh dear, I must say that I am surprised. Well, you must stay now, I see that" she says, still trying to register my words. "W-Will you be alright here?"

My grip on her fragile hand tightens. I do not know if I will be alright here, but I want to tell her yes. I do not want her worrying about me anymore than she already does. "I think I will be."

"Your mate, she is a good woman?"

"I think she is, grandma."

She nods and gazes down at her lap. "I wonder what your parents would think of all this, you being mated to an Alpha. At least I know you will be safe."

I wonder what they would think. Sadly, they may never know, but I cannot hold onto that thought forever. I would like to think that they would be happy for me, not only because she is an Alpha but because I have found my mate overall. Did they ever think that I would find my mate? They sent me off to my grandmother's, a secluded house in what seemed to be the middle of nowhere, so was that expected to be the end for me?

"I'll come to see you, make sure you're doing okay," I tell her while fighting back threatening tears. I do not want to say goodbye. She took care of me when my parents could not she loved me when my parents could not even if she was kept from the truth, and she is all I have left family-wise. "I don't want you worrying about me, because I'll be okay." Hanbin has left the room, giving us the privacy I need.

"Don't you worry too much about me either? Darling? I'm happy where I am, and I've got your grandfather looking after me. Now tell me, what is this Alphas name?"

"Shin Ryujin," I say. Her eyes stray away to something behind me. Glancing back, I see my mate standing in the doorway and my heart skips a beat as my nerves shoot up.

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