I'm the Alpha's Mate

Chapter 19

"I-I can see and speak to the moon goddess."

It's as if I chose left or right on a pathway to either happiness or tragedy. Ryujin could either believe me and accept me or laugh at me and think I'm nuts. The scary part is that I have no idea what she's going to say or act like.

The room was silent, and she didn't budge.

That's it she thinks I'm nuts! I knew I shouldn't have told anyone. She's just like my parents, pretending like I'm no longer here, invisible.

Looks like I'll always have the moon goddess, at least she will accept me. I just wanted someone to understand me, and not cope with my gift by locking me up in a dang attic!

I can still remember the sounds of my mother and father fighting from downstairs. Yelling about what to do with me. I should have never told anyone throughout the years I've been breathing. The only person that somewhat accepted me was my grandmother, and now I can barely see her.

I let the tear fall down my cheek and splatter onto my lap. I wish I could get away from this all, that being my life. There are too many things wrong with me. I'm too forgiving, naive, clueless, scared, weak.

My mate hit me across the face and I just forgive her in a snap. Why did I ever cross that stream in the woods?

I mean look where it got me. A sob slipped out of my quivering lips and Ryujin still stayed in shock. I thought if anyone in the world would have believed me, it would be my mate. But I guess not.

"Ryujin, I want to leave." I struggled to get out. Immediately she looked up at me confused.

"Let's just pretend this didn't happen... any of this," I mumble and stand up from the leather chair.

"Why are you saying that?" She lowly growls at me but not in an angry way, more in a protective manner. Slowly I breathed in. "I want to leave."

I can't be here anymore. I need to leave and explore the forest, make bad decisions, and be a kid again. Being the Luna isn't what I want. Just imagining the wind running past my face and lifting my hair into the breeze calms me. That's where I need to be, in the breeze.

Ryujin grabbed my shoulders and stared deep into my eyes. "Stop saying that!" She growled louder at me. "You belong here with me!" I shook my head and yet another tear fell. "No."

"Yeji stop it!" She seemed desperate to get through to me. The sadness in her eyes burned my heart and soul. I hate myself for making her like this.

"Ryujin I need to go," I whisper up at her through gentle sobs and cries. In one swift motion, she pressed her lips onto mine, creating a sensation I have never felt in a kiss.

It is so foreign but immediately makes me addicted to her lips. She kissed me gently and tiny sparks danced across my mouth.

She nibbled lightly at my bottom lip and I knew what she wanted. So I opened my lips slightly for her to slip her warm tongue inside. This was something I'd dreamed of doing with her.

Ryujin's lips continued to move pleasurably with mine, causing my hormones to rage. I let out a soft moan into our kiss which seemed to make Ryujin press harder against my lips. I wanted to be even closer but there was no more room in between us.

Her hard-toned body was pressed firmly against mine. She moved one of her hands to my lower back, making the fabric between us annoy me.

Ryujin picked me up by my thighs and pulled away from my lips. I straddled her as she started trailing and kissing up my neck. I moaned again but a little louder. Her lips felt like fire against my bare skin.