Silent Screams // WILBUR SOOT ANGST // SBI ADOPTION AU

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"Philza, you really should have just told the school to call me." Eret sighed when Phil opened the door for her after their phonecall where he explained,
"I know."
"You do realise how badly this could potentially go against you if Liam & Rose-"
"I know."
"So why did you risk that?"

Phil didn't hesitate to answer, the words flowed out so naturally it just felt right. The titles sounded right.

"I don't care how much trouble I end up in for this. He's my son, I refuse to lose anymore of my family." Eret softened their gaze, but before he could say anymore Tommy came into sight.
"What are you doing here?!" He barked, instantly remembering them as the person who took Wilbur and then almost took Ranboo from them too. Techno placed a hand on Tommys shoulder,
"Tommy-"
"Wilbur can't leave again!"
"Tommy-"
"Why does everyone keep leaving!"
"Theseus!" Techno raised his voice enough for Tommy to shut up, though occasional sniffles were still heard from him.

"Techno, take Tommy into the garden or something please." Phil ordered and Techno nodded, sighing as he did but took his brothers hand in his own and lead him outside eitherway. The two sat cross-legged on the grass as Tommy pulled random strands of it out, ripping them from their soil.

"Tommy some things aren't meant to stay forever, or as long as you wanted. Thats just what growing up is, but-" Techno paused. He looked down at his baby brother, not a baby anymore he realised.

Tommy had grown up too fast, people constantly slipping out of his embrace. Including Techno. But he had forced Tommy away with snarls and fists. He remembered faint squeals of laughter erupting from the toddler when they had been inseparable. Now they sat under the sun, feeling so distant from eachother, while trying to understand that forever doesn't exist here. It never had. Siblings came & went. Their dad was never fully here. And fear separated Tommy from Techno.

'Your fault.' The voices sung, loud and clear, but Techno didn't bat them away - they were right.

"Look, Toms. You have me, okay? And Dad. Even if neither of us act like it at times." Techno thumbed the blondes tears away, expecting Tommy to flinch or hit him away. He deserved that much, he deserved to feel the heart-wrenching feeling of someones fist against your skin. What he didn't expect, was for Tommy to hold his pinky finger out.

"Promise you won't do anything like drink or take anything again?"

Techno paused, a lump forming in his throat so raw he tasted copper and he choked back a sob as he slowly met Tommys finger.

"Okay, I promise, Toms. But you have to promise me to never get into it, ever, if you ever feel like how you felt when you went to JSchlatt - come to me."

Tommy nodded & wrapped his finger around the others,
"promise." He smiled leaning on Technos shoulder.
"Can we give something to Wilbur? Like a leaving gift? So he'll still remember us, even if we don't see him again." Tommy spoke up, lifting his head from his shoulder and meeting the olders curious eyes.
"Like what?"
"Like- I have an idea!" Tommy spoke up excitedly, dragging Techno with him as they snuck through the backdoor and up the stairs.

***

"Alright, I can't tell you that you did the right thing but- thank you for looking out for him. I can't imagine how tough this situation must be on you, on all of you." Eret sighed looking at the brunette sleeping peacefully curled in on himself on the sofa with a fro Tommy had wrapped over him, Philza remembered George and Dream telling him the same thing and felt worse.

"It's just Techno and Tommy I'm worried about." He spoke honestly, Erets ears perked up as she curiously gazed over to him. They all had gotten quite close so Eret was always asking how Tommy & Techno were and checking up on the family when he could, when he was still their 'foster giver' as Tommy had said.
"How are they holding up?" Phil ran his hands through his hair before talking.
"Techno relapsed recently, Tommy is going through some type of hallucinations? Apparently those are fine, it's just his minds way of coping or something, his therapist said to just let it happen until it gets too much or worsens. And Tommy- uh- almost went down the same path as Technoblade."

"The same path?" Eret gestured for an explanation when the silence lasted too long,
"he-" Philza swallowed thickly,
"he got ahold of something from JSchlatt and told me he was at his friends instead. I've been keeping a closer eye on him, on both of them, since then I just- I'm worried that they'll keep spiralling."

Eret patted the side of his arm comfortingly,
"They just-" Her sentence was cut short as Tommy burst into the room with Technoblade behind him, a wide smile strained Tommys features as he held something behind his back.
"I thought I told you two to play in the garden?" Philza questioned, though stared directly at Technoblade,
"we made something for Wilby- Wilbur!" Tommy exclaimed excitedly and Philza noticed his arms behind his back and Techno smiling warmly as his ruby eyes rested on the brunette. Eret cocked his head to the side, a part of them feeling guilty for having to rip them away from eachother, but it was his job.

"What is it?" Just as Phil asked, Wilbur began to stir slightly with his palms hastily rubbing his eyes as he stretched until his eyes fluttered open and he sat up.
"Wilbur! Look! Look!" Tommy screamed as he rushed up to the brunette, almost pouncing on him the same way he did on Wilburs first morning here.

Wilbur hastily took the item in his hands, the cover had been painted brown and some music notes were drawn on the front. It was clear which ones Tommy had drawn compared to Techno and it only just added to the pure love dripping from the simple act - the simple book. He tilted his head and looked up at Phil,
"remember when you threw your notebook away?" Techno smiled and slowly, Wilbur traced his hands over the cover before opening it.

The first page had writing on it,

Restart! :D
My name is Wilbur Soot (watson), I'm mute!
and tommy is a big man. the biggest, actually.

A smile almost ripped Wilburs face in half, his eyes trailed to the next page had a drawing of 4 stick figures. The tallest had blonde hair and a green & white striped bucket hat, on a drawn swing was a smaller blonde with a pink-haired figure stood by the side. Next to the figure he assumed was Techno was a brunette, a guitar in his hands and music notes surrounding him.

"You playing the guitar was Technos idea!" Tommy proudly stated and Technos cheeks almost went as pink as his hair,
"uhm- yeah. I heard you playing in the music room before with Alex at school, you're really good at that." Wilbur looked up at his brothers, meeting their gazes as he felt his smile begin to ache his cheeks,
"thank you." His voice was hoarse and croaky, yet it was gentle enough to lull you to sleep and Tommy had instantly wrapped his arms around him tightly.

Phil and Eret shared a saddened look.

[A/N hoping this fluff makes up for the mess that was the last chapter kekw. ]