I'm A Secret

RESTART

Hey,

Gaano mo na katagal tinatago yang nararamdaman mo para sa kanya?

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Huy nagtatanong ako.

Yeah You. Wag kanang lumingon, ikaw lang naman masochist dyan dahil na in love sa taong hindi ka naman gusto. Hindi kaba aamin? As in never?

But it's okay, I understand you. Mahirap sumugal sa bagay na hindi tayo sigurado or sigurado nga tayo kaya ayaw nating sumugal. Lalo na kung malaki ang mawawala. It's hard to risk it all.

Anyway, I just asked since I'm the same. I'm hopelessly in love with this moronic woman. She's gay by the way. She's smart but ugh let's just call her Moron.

I've been in love with her for years and she's a fu***** dense to not even notice it. I'm just a little sister to her. A rebel child who needs a guardian. Ugh stupid moron.

I don't need to ask if it's hard. Coz I effing know how hard it is. To hide our feelings because we're scared. To hide our sadness when they're happy with someone else. To hide our jealousy when we're seeing how happy they are together. To fake our smiles when they're talking about their love one.

Unrequited Love. . .

7.9 billions people around the world. And I fell in love with someone who's in love with someone else. I wish I'm that someone.

There's one thing I'm proud of. Her smiles makes me smile. Her laugh makes me laugh. And I'm happy when she's really happy.

But you know what? Sometimes, we just say 'As long as you're happy, I'm already happy'. Deep inside, we're still hoping to be their Happiness.

But of course, we can't do anything about it. We can't force things to happen. We can't force them to love us back.

So I'll just do anything for that happiness of her, which is obviously not me. Why?

Pfft Because I love that Moron.

She's a moron. But she's my moron. Make sense?

I'm in love with Echo but don't tell it to her. Why? Pfft well, simply because. . . .

She's My Secret

Or nah? •.~

Pfft hahahaha stupid self.

Ah yeah, before anything else. My name is Pandora Alexander Perez. I want to remove the Alexander but. . . Fu** it! It's still part of me, so yeah. Hmm Age?

I'm young of course.

Pfft hahahahah but not anymore I think? It's because to her, I'm always young.

Let's start my story when I'm 16 years old

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Pandora's POV

"Pan! Can we just talk for a seconds!" Argh. Fu***** exhausting. Hindi ko siya pinansin at nag tuloy tuloy lang ako papuntang CR.

"Pan! Are you even listening? Hinahanap ka ni Lolo at Lola. At least call or text them. And where the hell do you live?"

"Why do you even care? I'm not a child!" Sigaw ko pabalik kay Ruzena. Yeah, my cousin. My perfect cousin.

"But not old enough to live alone! And look at you, galing kaba sa lamay at itim na itim ka dyan?" Tinignan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin. What's wrong with my outfit? Tinignan ko siya ng masama

"My gosh Sis! Naturingan kang fashion designer di mo alam ang Gothic style?" Proud na pagkakasabi ko.

"That's not Gothic, that's Emo. Muka kang JeJe na bumili ng itim na bubble gum sa kanto para magkakulay yang bibig mo"

"Ugh! I really hate you Ruzena. Just leave me alone" Sabi ko at papasok na sana sa isang cubicle pero humarang na siya. Gosh! I just want to release something!

"I'm not done yet. Just go home please? Kung ano man ang ginawa mo para magalit sila sayo just say sorry and every--"

"Pfft I'm not like you. Stay away from me. And please pwede ba? I'm here to pee, pag ako naihi dito bigla eh makikipag palit kaba ng panty sakin?"

"Hahahahahahah" huh? Sabay kaming napatingin ni Ruzena sa pinto. May chismosa pa ata.

Ilang saglit pa ay may pumasok na matangkad na babae. Tingting pero maganda pfft.

"Ahm Hi? Iihi lang po ako. Continue" Sabi niya at lumapit sa available na cubicle. Pero inunahan ko na siya dahil kanina pa ako ihing ihi.

"Excuse me nauna ko" I said

"Yah! Hindi mo kailangang manulak. Batang to" Rinig kong reklamo niya. I don't really care.

"I'm sorry, you okay?"

"Oka-- o-okay lang po. S-salamat"

"Ito na ba ang tinatawag na love at first sight?" Napa roll eyes ako bigla. Hindi dahil umiihi ako. Kundi dahil sa boses niyang pabebe. Ugh, baduy. Kahit ayokong makinig ay narinig ko usapan nila. Kakilabot.

"Shut up! Naka focus ako dito!" Sigaw ko ng ako na ulit ang kausapin ni Ruzena.

Ilang saglit pa ay natapos nadin ako. Duh. Hindi naman balde balde ang ihi ko noh. Pero sa halip na lumabas agad ay nakinig muna ako.

"Why the hell are you laughing?" Her laugh is cute though.

"Ahm coz you're cute? At the same time pretty hehe"

"You're flirting?" No couz, she's just friendly. Of course she's flirting!

"Then I'm sorry. I don't sway that way. No offense" Pfft emotional damage.

"Just a bit of advice then. Hayaan nyo lang hahahahaha muka namang kaya niya sarili niya. Mas lalo lang yang mag rerebelde kung pipigilan" I smiled for that.

"She's 16! Tingin mo hahayan lang naming masira ang buhay niya? Who the hell are you?" Matagal ng sira ang buhay ko. And your life too.

"Good that you ask. My name is Echo, 21 years old. Single at ready na maging jowa mo. Oh ano tara Date? ^_^" Pfft. Now that's speed

"Fu** this day. Stay away from me" Mukang umalis na ang pinsan ko. She's annoyed.

"See you soon aking Sinta. Maha--"

*Bogsh!

"Ay tokwa! Dahan dahan ka naman!" Halatang nagulat siya. Nilakasan ko kasi talaga ang pagkakabukas ng pinto.

"You're doomed. Perfect daughter yon, never papatol sayo" Babala ko pero wala siyang balak makinig. Nakipag usap nalang ako saglit dahil mukang seryoso siya sa pinsan ko.

At nangarap pang mag model hahahaha

"At hangin mo. Ate, kumain ka muna. Muka kang tingting. Di na uso mukang toothpick sa modeling ngayon. Feeling nito, maganda nga puro ribs naman. Dyan kana" I'm not rude. Just being honest.

"Thanks Pan! And hey! Bagay sayo style mo, tignan ko lang kung di ka mandiri pag nakita mo sarili mo 5 or 10 years from now hahahahaha" Humarap ako sa kanya at nag F U

(^_^) 凸 "Your name is Echo right? Ruzena and Echo? Ano name ng love team nyo, EchoZena? Sound like Echosera!" I said laughing deep inside. That's impossible, Ruzena is a perfect puppet.

But if ever? I'll support her.

She deserves to be happy :) I just wish she's brave enough to fight back. Not like me who only know how to run.

But Echo huh? She's a older than me. She's funny and adorable. Looks kind too. And my heart is weak to kind human being pfft.

Nahh. Not her. Everyone but her.