Hello people so ita been about a year since my last update. In uaual fashion its late at night. 1:37am to be exact. So some updates. I did end up dropping out of my maths degree despite being good at maths. I ended up doung nothing for the rest of the year bur working. Then i was doing an internarional relations degree at the atart of this year but i hated the politucs and thr japanese was too hard so i dropped out of that. Im planning on just doing bhisnees next semester. My job at officeworks has stopped rostering me on ao im trying to find a new job. Most likelt mcdonalds though lol i had an interview there. Back to fast food for me. Last year in december i had a car crash... that was pretty bad. Its all sorted now, but it destryed my confidence in drving. Life is fine, but it fells like im waiting for it to start with a job and uni and stuff.
This is bad but given the new popularity of anime im feeling gatekeppery about it. Like i was embarresed about likeing it when i was younger and niw the cool people like it aswell. The people that used to make fun of me for it. Its like they took the one thing i had goddamnjt. Jk but still. Im still playing the flutr and doing art. I still like kpop. Tbh i havebt changed mich, which isnt a bad thing. I play lol and valorant (you can probably tell from my last 2 stories) a lot. I still watch riverdale ahhahaghaha. Im watching rwby for the first time for year i associated it with like peek nerd which is ri h coming from me given what i jhst said. But im liking it so far. Ummmnmnm. The sinatraa thing is crazy. If you want my opinion is that nobody should have an opion. None of us know. Not conplying with inverstigation from RIOT (not police) is best thing to do quilty or not as they cant get anything against you. Also mentioning that he has changed doesnt mean he raped her (he mentioned he was a bad boyfriend). I seriously dont know about this training people are talking about. And lastly...the audio clip... yikes i dont beleive that can be used as evidence. Im not dismissing her feeling at the end of the day i think the whole thing was bad communication between teenagers. But she is speaking in a baby voice you can say "no means no" all you want but if you were being serious would you speak like that...no. all im trying to say is dont junp to conclusion like all of these dickriders on twitter are. Goddamn people dont know how to form their own opinion. I dont care if yoy dont want to support him but dont call out others for choosing to do so. People always pick the said which makes them seem the most holy and politicaly correct. In saying that i beleive he has way more suppirters than haters, its just that no one who supports him is saying their opion in fear of people saying they support rape. Lol tangent about that over.
Last thing, i saw the batman the other day with a friend and it got me thinking. First robert pattinson is hot as batman like way more than edward. But like i didnt find him hot as bruce wayne. Only batman. He was just so big and muscular lol. Despite not knowing anything about batman i rrally enjoyed the movie and i reccomend. Thinking about batman reminded me of a teacher i had in 2019 for specialist maths and chemistry. His name was mr. H**e im not expossing myself that much hahahha. Anyway he was fresh out of university at my school in 2018 which made him like 22-24 when he taught me. I actually had a small fasionation with him in 2018 and id do my usual fantisisation (i cant spell) about him at night. I actually remeber going to maths help at lunch just so he could help me with my maths. Anyway the next year i find out he it teaching 2 of my classes... thats like 9 hours a week... yay. But actually not yay because i ended up not liking him. Idk i got a weird vibe from him. In hindshight its probably becayse he was in his early 20s twaching 16 year old girls (all girls school) but idk he felt too close to the students. Like i remeber a time when everyone was standing around his desk expect me and this other time when he drew molicules on the board and mentioned how they looked like boobs. Idk i felt so awkward aroynd him, maybe its because of my feelings toward him the previous year. I think he could sense my feeling coz he was awkward around me too. I dont think we liked eachother. After that i always said that i didnt like him, but i think it was more misunderstanding than anythinf else. How does this relate tobatman? Well he loved batman... thats it. Anyways so my downbad ass got ne thinkinf about him and guess what im now curious about him again and just imagining what could have been. Coz you know we arent too far apart in age. He left the school in 2020(my senior year) and rumors spread that year that he was dating one if the teachers at my school. I hope hes not hahah, hes mine. I know this is delusional but ive somehow convinced myself that he probably has a special place in his heart for me given i was one of his first students in his teaching career. I wonder if hea ever thiught about me since the end of 2019? There was that one time i think i saw him in the shopping cenre in mid 2020 but i still convinced myself thqt i didnt like him at the time to i quickly turned away and never looked back. To this day i dont know if that was him or not. I think it was. Anyway so tonight i did the most downbad thing ive ever done and i looked his name up on google for any updates on him (he wasnt a social media user) i found like a think he wrote for his uni talking about being a teacher and they included a picture of him. And i must say he is fine, like even finer (finner?) than before. I got to imagining and like what if i saw him in the theater and we talked and like got drinks or something... what its legal. Anyways in my dreams im probably never going to see him again. And that might be the best so i can just keep him as a fun memory and i can imagine him as being whatever i want him too. But still i wonder if he has ever thought abiut me since, lol probs not. Anyways im 19 and i shouldnt still be like this lol im not 13 but hey its fun to imagine right. Update on relationship life... still havent experienced anything. Just never had the oppertunjty to. Who knows maybe mr h**e will be the one. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 anways its now 2:15 therefore ive been working on this for 38 minutes lol. Mr h**e if youre reading this youve probs figured out kts aboit you and yoy have proably figured out which student i am but ummm, ive been kinda down bad for you 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. (Legal now hahah) anyways im litteraly rambling so much and this is so degenerate of me. Goodnight i will miss you mr. H**e for i once misunderstood you.
