Hello! Its that time of year again when i begin to mourn the next year. i call it my 2 year rule. once 2 years passes i begin to mourn and long for that year. The big one last year was 2021 and now that its april ish i can feel me beginning to really look at 2022 with rose tinted glasses. and its fuinny because i definitely have some entries on here where i discuss yearning for 2018, 2020 etc. haha, if only i knew. I mean i did know that it would happen but ive recently been able to boil it down and really understand how my brain works with this. its so unhealthy and i know but i cant stop. ever since 2020 i'd say ive done this. maybe 2019?? not sure. anyways 2022, what do i miss about it. well for one i was only 1 year and a bit out of school and not 3 years and a bit. i was supper into the gym. Its the year i got really back into anime. and most significantly, my job at mcdonalds. it sounds so stupid but like that was the most fun most ive felt accepted most free most memorable just ive ever had. The people that worked there!!!! they were all so nice and funny and i think they all really liked me and i let that go.... i mean i dont regret getting a new job coz there was an element of shaming myself because i worked at mcdonalds but like i let go of the friendships. i had the power to keep them going and i didnt like a dumbass. and there was a guy i liked that potentially liked me too and when i left i still had feelings for him but since i havent seen him since then my crush wasnt able to fade away i guess so i still kinda like him i na the one that got away kind of way you know. IDK i miss that job so much it was so much fun and i really loved the people i worked with. I hope i reunite with them some day.
ALSO TODAY IS LOVE DIVE'S 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY. THE BEST SONG TO COME OUT OF THE 2020'S SO FAR DO NOT EVEN FIGHT ME ON THAT.
