Alright wow I write these kinda often now haha. Weird to think I'm 20 now ans I was 17 when I wrote the first one. So much yet so little has changed since then. Everything in my life makes me sad is really unfortunate. My life is so stagnant. Just going to uni doing a dead end degree and working casually on the weekend. I really feel like a failure. When I'm around my parents I can't help but feel like such a disappointment to them. It consumes me. It stops me from doing anything. The fear of failure. I just idk I feel like I can't do anything so I don't even try. I'm also soooo lazy but then I complain about not doing anything. I really am stupid aren't i. I don't even have much to say. Everglow is back which is cool. It makes me think of 2021 which is miss. This is kinda funny cos I wrote once here in 2021 that missed 2018. I still miss 2018 but you know. Grass is greener syndrome and rose coloured glasses and all that shit. Umm valorant champions happened eg won which is cool. They're no 2021 sentinels though. *sometimes all I think about is youuuu late nights in the middle of juuunnnne* lmao. I literally went through every valorant pro at that time in terms of being obsessed with them lmao. Ehh I'm doing typing bye. Wish me luck for work tomorrow and Sunday. Kms :(
