"THE CLOSURE"( COMPLETED )

PART 01

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Not everyone had a chances to have an 'CLOSURE' in every relationship that ends without nothing and any kind of explanations. That's why it turned out to us,  to overthink every each of days, asking 'Where did I go wrong?' ' What did I do?' and 'Why did he leave me?'. A questions that the only persons who can answer, is the person who leave you without anything explanations.

Moving on and Moving forward is a hardest thing to do, some people say it was easy to move on. The only thing you must do is to make yourself bussier every each of days had come.But what if, you do that everyday but still... when the night has come and the quiet atmosphere that you had, the only person you must think is still... Him.

Tulala akong nakatingin sa kisame nang aking silid, ninanamnam ang sariwang hangin na nang gagaling mismo sa bintana ng aking silid. When suddenly my phone beeped and receive a message and email for someone I didn't know.

Sandali ko munang pinasadahan ng tingin ang aking cellphone looking for my lockscreen that needed an password to be opened. I've always stop while typing my password co'z not that I don't remember my password but it reminds me of special date where up until now, I've never be forgotten.

Matapos itipa ang password na hinihingi ay saka ako nagpasyang, basahin ang message na na-recieved. While reading it kumukunot ang noo ko sa bawat salitang nababasa ko. Agad akong napabangon saking hinihigaan ng buo ko nang mabasa ang message na nang galing sa isang kaibigan.

WHAT THE?!!

Matapos nun ay muli na naman akong nakatanggap ng mensahe and this time, I need to open my laptop just to see the email that someone send it to me. Sa pagkakataong ito, tinawagan ko na ang kaibigan kong may pakana nang lahat ng ito. It took it a four ring before she answered it.

" What the hell did you do, Angele?!" the first word I say when she picked up the phone.

" Why?" she act like she didn't know why I called her.

" Anong 'Why?' ka dyan?! Ano tong na-recieved kong email na galing sa isang TV shows huh? Care to explain this?" I said while waiting patiently for her answer.

I heard her heavy sighed on the next line before she started saying.

"Okay, Okay fine, I did that." she admitted.

" Yeah, I know. Dahil nakalagay lang naman dito sa email nila na ikaw nga ang may pakana, kung bakit iniimbitahan nila ako ngayon sa programa nila. You know naman na ayoko sa mga ganyan hindi ba?" inis na sabi ko sa kanya.

" I know, I know my friend! But I just wanted to help, okay?" she said.

" Help? by exposing to televison about my past with..." agad akong tumigil sa pagsasalita sa pag banggit ng pangalan nya.

"See? even saying he's name hindi mo magawa. Yeah, again I admitted I do that. Just because I wanted you to move on, Khant. Hindi mo ba nakikita sarili mo, you've changed! "

" What changed are you talking about, huh Angele?" anang ko pilit pinaglalaban ang sarili ko.

" You, nagbago kana. Maybe you didn't see it through yourself, but me as your bestfriends I see it. Hindi na ikaw yung Khant na nakilala ko, ever since you and your ex's broke up."

Pansamantala akong natigil at marami mang salitang gustong sabihin pero tila nawala lahat ng yun  nang sabihin iyon ng aking kaibigan.

" Now, tell me. Is it wrong to do this? Khant, I just wanted to help you, okay? I just wanted you to be back at yourself again. I just wanted you to free yourself from your pasts. And the only thing I know is this... the only thing I can help is giving you an closure that you need, a closure that can answer your what if's and why's? So please... accept it my friend. That was a last, if you want... sasama ako just to be your supporter over there, okay?" Angele said with so much concerned.

" B-But what if..." hindi ko magawang ituloy dahil wala pa man ako sa mismong show, ngayon palang kinukuwestiyon kona ang sarili ko.

" Reserve your all what if's and questions, Khant. "

"Hindi! P-Pano kung di siya pumunta? P-Papano kung ako lang ang may gusto sa gusto mong mangyari at siya ay wala, huh? Hindi ba nakakahiya yun? P-Pwede naman kaming mag usap sa personal if ever ehh. No need to be public, Angele." I said trying to refused her wanted.

" Ehh, antanong? willing ka ba na makipag usap sa kanya in person, huh?"

Hindi na naman ako naka imik.

" Alam mo kilala kita, at kung talagang gusto mo siya makausap sa personal, sana noon mopa ginawa hindi ba? But no, you didn't. Co'z I know your scared. And that was my exact reason kaya napilitan akong gamitin tong TV shows na'to para magkaroon ulit kayo nang chances na makapag usap ulit, if ever man magkaroon kayo nang magandang 'CLOSURE' o wala. Atleast you've talked "

Ilang minuto nagkaroon ng katahimikan sa pagitan namin bago ako nakapag salita.

" So ano, papayag kana?" Angele asked again.

Before I answered her, I sighed heavily before I let out a heavy sighed that came to my chest.

" Y-Yeah, pumapayag na ako." I replied.

"Yes! that's good! Don't worry ako na lang ang magsasabi sa kanilang pumayag kana sa request nila. And i-u-update na lang kita kung kailan yun, okay? I Love You my friend. I promise after this, you can get your 'CLOSER' that you wanted. Para naman maka move-on kana. Lahat ng nirereto ko sa'yo nauuwing luhaan ehh, ako lagi ang napapag bintangan"

Natawa na lang ako sa mga sinabi nya.

"Kasalanan mo naman talaga eh."

" Well, well, well... Is it wrong to help you? Sabi kase nila the only thing para maka move on is to find another  man attention, right? hindi mo naman kase ko in-inform na hanggang ngayon dika parin pala move-on dyan sa ex's mo. Isa pa, gusto kong makapag asawa ka, ayokong tumanda kang dalaga, noh. Hindi ako papayag! Kawawa naman magiging anak ko, kapag wala akong maireto sa kanyang mapapangawasa nya." pagaalburoto nya.

 Tsk! pati pag-aanak dinamay pa!

" Oo na, Oo na! Shut up, Angele. Segi na ibaba ko na" I said before I finally end the call.

After nang pag-uusap naming iyon, doon ko lang muli naisip na ilan pala sa mga naka paligid sakin ay naapektuhan sa mga bagay na nabago sakin. I didn't know that I changed. I mean para naman sakin wala akong nakikitang pagbabago sakin. Pero iba pala kapag ang mga taong naka paligid muna ang nakaka kita at nakapag sabi nun sa'yo mismo.

And maybe, Angele is right. Maybe I need this to get the an answered that I asked for myself for almost five years. Maybe a CLOSURE can help me to now move forward and start my life in a new beginning...

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