Captured (Stars' Band Series #1) [COMPLETED]

Chapter 19

Chapter 19
Slowly

Trigger Warning ⚠⚠⚠

"What the fuck?" Niko cursed when I dropped my keys. Napalingon silang dalawa saakin and I saw how their eyes widened.

Tears is making my vision blurry. Ang sakit sa paa ay hindi inalintana dahil mas namamayani ang sakit na nararamdaman sa dibdib.

He used me. He used me to pay off his Father's debt by invading my privacy! He sold too much information from me in order gain money!

"S-Sainet..." Ethan called me but I just shake my head and turned my back at him.

Putangina. Bakit ang sakit? Bakit ganito ka sakit ang pagmamahal?

Someone hold my hand from behind and I swayed it away without looking at him. Binilisan ko ang paglakad ko patungong elevator and this time, he didn't just hold my hand. Hinila na niya ito papunta sa isang kwarto kung saan walang tao.

I was about to protest pero inunahan niya na ako.

"Baby... Let me e-explain, hmm?" Saad nito kaya wala akong nagawa kung hindi tumitig sa mata niyang nakikita ang takot.

I stared at him and smirked. "Explain, what, huh?"

I saw how his lips shivered when he answered me. "Everything. Makinig ka sa 'kin, ha? Please, l-listen to me..."

Hindi ko na nakaya ang pagpigil sa luba nang hinampas ko sa kaniya ang dalawa kong kamay.

"Listen to you? Fuck you! A-Ano tingin mo saakin? Tanga? That I would listen to whatever the fuck your reason is?" He held my hand and that stopped me from punching his chest.

"No, baby... Please?"

I laughed sarcastically. "Really? You still have that fucking audacity to call me baby? Ethan naman! Lumulubog na ako!" I stopped and catch my breath. "L-Lumulubog na ako, e'. Akala ko pa ay ikaw yung sasa... sasagip saakin. Ikaw pala ang papatay ng tuluyan sa'kin."

I cried... Without his shoulders now. Nasanay siguro masiyado ako. Nasanay akong sa balikat niya umiiyak dahil do'n ko nararamdaman ang kapayapaan at kasiguraduhan.

"Bakit?" I simply ask and he kneeled to face me. I was sitting on the floor when he hold my hand, trying to calm me down but I shoved it away.

"Baby... Listen to me, please? L-Let's talk but for now, calm down."

Tumayo ako na nakapagpabigla sakaniya. "No, tell me the truth, Ethan. Ngayon na because I don't think I can still manage to handle all of your bullshits later," Nanginginig kong sabi. He, once again, tried to hold my hand and I let him.

I looked at him on his eyes and I saw a small glint of tears on his cheeks.

"What you heard earlier... It's all true."

Mapait akong napangiti nang binanggit niya ang mga salitang mas lalong nagpadurog saakin.

It's true. He used me... And he never loved me.

Fuck, it hurts. Sobra naman na siguro 'to?

"So it's true. That you fucking used me to pay your Father's fucking debt, right? Bakit? Wala ka na bang putanginang pera kaya pati ang ang privacy ko... Hindi, pati ako ay binebenta mo?" I asked at him, bitterness and anger is slowly eating me.

"No, it's not what I mean-"

"Then fucking what, Ethan? Ha? Hindi ba 'yan?! Hindi ba pati ako ay binebenta mo?!" I stopped. "Putangina naman, e'. Ikaw yung pinagsasabihan ko ng sekreto ko... Nang mga hinanakit ko pero tangina... Ikaw pala ang magpapahiya saakin sa publiko."