|Leaps of faith| A DC story |

Stay here.

(Jesus, this is a lot of emotional stuff for Y/N in this one.)

Me, Ben, and Kaine all sat on top of a building. Kaine who's never really been outside of a lab probably was amazed. His speech patterns were all messy as well, kinda like Cass's. "How'd you find out?" I asked Ben, who was kinda upset. "He- When he saw my steak of blonde hair, that's when..." Ben said before covering his eyes so I wouldn't see his tears. Kaine looked over Ben, putting his hand on Bens shoulder. "I'm sorry." I told Ben, he shook his head. "That doesn't make it okay! I'm a clone, I'm not real! All my memories aren't real!" He shouted, standing up. I stood up, I didn't know how to comfort him. Ben looked at me, with anger and sadness. "That doesn't mean you don't matter Ben, you can still be your own person." There wasn't much I could say. "And? I have nobody! Literally, if I were to go and try to interact with anybody they'd ignore me!" Ben shouted, starting to walk away. I couldn't stop him, and I knew he didn't want to be stopped. So I let him go. I had to let Ben go again.

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It's been three weeks since Ben left. And he still lives rent free inside my head. I looked at the waves passing by, I was alone, aside from Cass being there next to me. I was lucky I still had people to care for me. The waves crashed up against our feet. Wayne enterprises has made a effort to clean the beaches of Gotham, and it was working. Bruce also decided to take Kaine under his wing, train him. Was everything Turing out good? Did I finally get my happy ending? Probably not. But I wouldn't mind this one. Cass kissed my cheek, I slung my arm around her. She rested her head on my shoulder. Things were quiet, something was telling me that I should stay here, stay in this moment. Like after this it would all go downhill. Someone walked up next to us. It was Tim and Dick. "Are you guys ready to go or what?" Dick said, we had a mission in Blüdhaven soon and we had to get going. The reason we were at the beach was too met up with everyone.

Tim and Dick walked away first, followed shortly after by Cass. Again, something felt like it was pulling me back, telling to stay and not go. The riots in Blüdhaven haven't been good, mafias have been manipulating the people to attack innocents. For money, drugs, or just for their sick fantasies. I sighed, walking away.

As I got into the Batplane, Cass rested her head on my shoulder. Tim also did the same, he was always the sleep deprived one. Guess I was just one big pillow too these two. After about five minutes they were asleep. "Hey Y/N, how do you feel about the New Outlaws?" Dick asked me. I looked at him instead of Cass. "What'd you mean by that?" I asked him in return. "It's jus- Jason- Bruce wants you to lead a team. Like all of us have. But Jason thinks otherwise. He thinks that you're reckless. Not ready. Like- Like him." Dick told me, I looked out at the gibbous moon. Waxing. I tried to focus on that instead of this conversation. "Y/N?" Dick tried to get my attention. "I found out recently that they were going on missions without me. Jason seems to be pushing me out." I gently laid my hard down on Cass's. "He just doesn't want you to end up like he died- did." Dick weakly said at the end, I knew that Jason must've been a sensitive topic for him. I mean, he finally had a brother and then boom. He's gone. I knew Jason didn't want to go through that with me. Nobody did. We all knew that getting into this 'job' is dangerous. It could get anyone killed. That's when I realized; I shouldn't be a symbol of hope for the small guy, I should be a symbol of hope of people like Bruce, like Clark, like Tim or Cass, like any superhero in world. I shouldn't only emerge every now and then as Spider-Man, I have to fully become Spider-Man. The dark costume I don't think helped either. "I'm not sure if I want to be on a team. I'm not sure if I'm actually ready to be a leader. To be the one at the frontlines. The one that stands and will fight no matter what. I have to establish myself and prove not only to me, but to everyone else that I'm ready to be someone like Superman or Batman." I said, Dick looked back at me, smiling.

'Stay here.' What I was thinking earlier. I shouldn't stay in one family. I have to take the chances I have to interact with my family outside the mask. Tim, Harry, MJ, Otto, Aunt May, and Cass. I'm not there enough for each of them. Cass is my lover, I need to be by her side, willing to help her get through something. Tim and Harry are my best friends. In and outside of Spider-Man. I was lucky to have both. I've barely ever talked to MJ or Aunt May, I need to treat them like I'm aware of there existence. And Otto, we're trying to change the world, one step at a time. There's nothing that can change that.

I looked down at Cass and Tim. Was I really right to want my powers to just be gone? Was this random spider bite a good thing? Hell if I know. But I did know that the family I got from it was a good one. Even though I've barely known all of them, only for about a year and a half, they were still my family. If I lost them, I don't know what I could do. "We're here."

Meanwhile...

My son Harry has been in bed for about two hours now. I need to stop thinking about how this can kill me. I spat in the sink, then looking back up at the mirror. I was pale, and a bit green. I swashed my teeth, turning around to go to sleep. Little did I know something was starring at me.

(Yeah there's not gonna be a Blüdhaven arc. But something sinister is coming. Those piercing green eyes staring at you. Again.)