Letters

To the guy whom I gave up

A letter to the guy whom I gave up...

I'm sorry. For everything that I did to you. For all the pain that I'd caused. For those tears you shed because of me.

I'm sorry for giving up on you, for giving up on us.

I don't know why, or when and how. I can't answer the texts you are sending me, asking me why I gave up. Because I myself can't find an acceptable reason why I did it.

I was just so confused that time, there are million things running inside my head. It's just too complicated, too many problems. I thought it was a bad timing, that our love isn't meant to be that way, that time.

Sorry for giving up on us easily, when all you did was fought hard for us.

Sorry for making dumb decisions.

Sorry for leaving you, without any exact reason why.

Sorry for making you frustrated and mad at yourself.

Sorry for coming into your life, and then leave.

When you told me those three words, I didn't know what else to say back. So I remained silent, because I became confuse about us as time goes by.

I used to say it back as soon as possible, but then I realized something I couldn't explain.

I just woke up and realized that I was tired of you.

But I tried to make it feel like it was before, I tried to fight. But before I could even start, I gave up. Just like that.

Sorry for making you believe that we would last.

Sorry for the lies and all the promises I never made.

Sorry for everything.

I gave up because I know it was for the best. I gave up because you deserve so much better. You deserve to have a brighter future than having me by your side.

You deserve someone better than me, someone who will make you happier. You deserve a professional job. You deserve to have a family, and grow old with someone who isn't me.

I guess my love for you became tired, and slowly, just like how a turtle walk on the ground, it fade away.

There are some love stories that has to end because it isn't right. It isn't meant to happen.

We are just not compatible to each other.

I became tired as time pass by. My love for you dried and turned into dust, into thin air, until it was gone.

But believe me when I say that I loved you. Heaven knows how much I loved you. How much I felt for you.

All our friends know how I felt special whenever you held me, touched me.

You are a great person. And you were my great love.

I'm sorry for leaving. I'm sorry for all the pain. For wasting your time on me.

I'm sorry because I didn't loved you the way you loved me.

I'm sorry for giving up.

I'm sorry.