'how can you love me if you don't even fucking love yourself' he slurred
'Fuck you"
will she still feel the same about him once she finds out all the lies and secrets? life is never easy but now life is more complicated than ever she had managed to...
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2 am
every part of my body was sore i sat there crying and crying pleading him to stop but he didn't. he kept going. I felt his touch his breath his hands all over me even though he wasn't there physically. Hearing loud bangs I realize I'm back at the place where it always happens , its like a complete loop over and over again. Hearing his voice , i freeze i scream for help, i scream, i yell but no one was there. He starts heading towards me i run but i don't get to far, I feel him get closer to me as he puts his hand on my boob travelling his hands down towards my private area. my bretah shortens, i feel tears running down my face tasting the saltiness after." por favor, por favor, no te dé nada más que esto, por favor, le pagaré a alguien para que tenga todo lo tuyo, por favor, te lo ruego.' I rember begging though it didnt work at all. He grabbed my hair and forcefully brings me to my knees pulling his pants down to show his private part . Making me open my mouth a-
translation(please please dont please ill give u anything but this please ill pay someone for you to have their all yours put please i'm begging)
I wake up jolting and scared, feeling the tears on my face. feeling like i cant breath. Why is it so hard to fucking breath.I touch my body to make sure I'm fully clothed . It's just a nightmare we're ok hes not here . I run to the bathroom and throw up i flush the toilet and try to make my way to the sink
i see my self in the mirror i look the same i try to smile to make my self stop crying but it doesn't really work i start crying even more. I open the pill bottle
One wont hurt right? just one more just so this feeling can go away
No,stop doing this to our self look at us, we cant fucking get high off this every time this shit happens you need to see someone get help. for Alex he wouldn't want this for us
i cry harder i cant breath it feels so hard to breath like im drowning like everything is closing in on me like someone has their hands around my throat. I take one pill and everything starts slowing down,normal again
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I check my phone trying to see what time it is 2 am are you fucking kidding me. I have something today and i wont be getting sleep fucking great
who needs sleep anyway. im so fucking pathetic cant go to sleep because of a nightmare of something that happened so long ago. I need to grow up i have to leave it in the past move on. i need more water
i go downstaris and hear shit breaking. Well fuck me i walk in at the wrong times ISTG
I see enzo thowing his cup on the floor. I look at him
Tbh I have no idea if i should be worried or like concerned but rn i just want water
"Why the fuck are u up" he slurred. Oh just fucking kill me hes fucking drunk
