'how can you love me if you don't even fucking love yourself' he slurred
'Fuck you"
will she still feel the same about him once she finds out all the lies and secrets? life is never easy but now life is more complicated than ever she had managed to...
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I woke up next to absolutely no one. Can I say I'm shocked? Mhm no, seen this coming. I get up and make my way down to the kitchen. It's quiet, too quiet. Everyone most likely left, and once again they didn't tell me. It's kinda stupid that they don't like What if a kidnapper comes and kills me then what? I get some water and sit on the counter. I just saw my mother after god knows how long last night. I guess it hasn't hit me yet, Realizing that I was face-to-face with her, it's a bit odd.
Knowing I promised myself I wouldn't react the way I did last night but that's how I reacted. I mean that has to be a way everyone would react right? It has to be. No person would respond normally. My mom is a person I don't talk about. I don't like even saying her name, thinking about her, makes me disgusted. Just the thought of her makes me want to throw up violently everywhere.
Funny right? How one second I'm begging for my mommy and her love and the next I want absolutely nothing to do with her. I wish I knew why too. I wish I knew why I felt a lot of things. My life would probably be so much easier and less suicidal if I did, but oh well that's life I guess. That's what all the old bitches say "It's life you'll get over it." Like shut up they swear they are so wise.
I hear the door unlock and familiar voices. Great know I have to deal with them just kill me now. Their voices get louder as they get closer. " She's in the kitchen sir" I hear Alfred says. what a snitch. The three boys walk in and sit on the bar stools. They say nothing. Lorenzo doesn't even acknowledge that I'm here. I mentally roll my eyes and get off the counter.
I start to make my way to leave. " Sit down Davina," Theo says sternly. I turn around " Wow and they speak." Ignore me for literally five fucking minutes and then they want to talk while I'm trying to leave. " We have to talk about last night." I look at Lorenzo hoping he didn't tell them.
" What about last night?" I ask. Theo takes a deep breath. He's so fucking dramatic I swear. " You embarrassed us. All of us. The whole fucking mafia, the whole team. The little action you pulled was not okay." I look at him with a straight face. Is he being fucking serious?
" You know people know who I am right? I am not known as being a part of your fucking mafia. So If anything it's bad for her little boyfriend not for you guys. It shouldn't even be that big of a deal I mean we're in a fucking mafia for fucks sake." Lorenzo and Jax look at each other then they look a Theo "You've always been such a character Davina. That little attitude is going to get you killed one day." A very familiar voice says behind me.
I say nothing, my breathing stops. It feels like all the words were ripped out of my throat and someone is covering my mouth denying my ability to say anything. . I make eye contact With Lorenzo. He quickly looks away. Fucking great. " You brought my mom here?" I asked them but it was mostly directed to Lorenzo. " It was my idea, want you to apologize," Theo says
"Who do you fucking think you are, you have no idea who you just invited into your house," My mom chuckles " Stop being so dramatic Davina I am your mother." That stupid fake tone of hers " No, not a mother, a mother wouldn't have done half of the shit you've done to me." she lets out a loud sigh. She gets close to me my breath hitches. " Back away from her now," Lorenzo says. "Enough of this"
" Poor little boy. I like you. This is a shame Davina you guys would've made a wonderful couple." We all look at her confused. " I'm kidding Jesus take a joke." I roll my eyes. This whole thing is a waste of my time. I walk out of the kitchen ignoring everyone. I make my way to the back. Feeling myself crumble
How could they? Especially Lorenzo when I TOLD him what she did, and he let her just walk in and make me look stupid. As I'm sitting I start to hear footsteps. I get up and start walking in till I hear Alfred's voice. " It's just me Ma'am." I look at him and give him a half smile.
" I wanted to check up on you. I am very sorry." I shut my eyes. " You don't have to be sorry," I say trying not to cry. He makes his way to me and sits down. " Sometimes mothers take all their pain and take it out on their children, they hate their own blood just because they are unhappy with themselves."
" I just wanted her to love me, my whole life that's all I wanted. But she just hates me and I don't know why. " he looks at me " So now you have to let her go. It is not your job to beg for your mother's love Davina." He hugs me. "I'm not sticking up for the boy's actions but don't hate them. I've known them since they were kids, all they know is work so just be patient they"ll come around." He whispers. I nod
" Alfred may I speak to Davina" He nods. Lorenzo sits next to me. I don't make eye contact or say anything. " Vina I'm really sorry, I didn't know he would bring her here." I nod "It's okay" He looks at me confused " What?"
" It's okay. I get it it's work what I did was not okay and I get it." he shakes his head " I'm not going to argue there's nothing I need to say." I truly mean it there's no reason " Davina I li-" I cut him off " Don't stop saying that, if you meant it you wouldn't have let it happen."
