Darkest Secrets

"What Was I Made For?"

song: What Was I Made For? by Billie Eilish

I walk toward the water trying to ignore the pain in my chest, hoping me being in the water will distract me. My feet feel the coldness of the water causing my body to be covered in chills. "I've missed you so much amor. Your body, your touch everything" My breath hitches remembering the memory. I close my eyes hoping his voice would get out. " Open your fucking eyes and look at me while I do this" SHUT UP I scream in my mind, please. I feel a few tears run down my cheek. My breath starts to quicken the familiar burn in my chest returns, I let out a loud sob, and I cover my mouth quickly hoping Lorenzo didn't hear me.

I hear my name being called out but I'm too scared to turn around. " Vina hey, hey look at me," Lorenzo says, but I can't look at him, I try to look at everything but him. Everything Is closing in. I feel his breath his touch I hear his voice I can't get it out of my mind. I start choking on my breath feeling tears run down my face I feel the water splash on my body. " I, I can't breath," I say choking on my words. " I need you to look at me, Davina" I hear him say

" I need you to look at me, Davina," I say softly to her. She slowly looks at me, I see her eyes bloodshot red with tears coming down. Seeing her like this breaks my heart. I hold her hand and place it on my heart. " Feel my heart beat don't focus on anything else but that, I need you to slowly do deep breaths ok." She lets out shaky breaths " It's just me and you here look around if you don't believe me" She looks around her breath slowing down " I won't let anyone hurt you I'm here."

She hugs me, and I'm taken back I haven't hugged someone in a fucking while, but for some reason, I feel like I needed to protect her, and I don't know how to feel. This feeling in my stomach makes me want to protect her with my life and I haven't felt this way about someone in a while. " I'm sorry she says softly. I didn't mean to react like that" I look down at her "Don't be sorry" I say quietly back. It stays quiet she sits down near shore and I join her. During this time as weird as it sounds I examine her. I notice her four tiny tattoos on her arm she has two tattoos on her hands, then I notice the scars on her arms and legs.

" What was I made for," I say breaking the silence " What does it mean?" she looks over at me and then back at the waves "It's a question I find Myself asking often so one day drunk me got it tattooed. she says. " Do you know the answer to it yet?" she slightly Lets out a quiet giggle "No not yet, but hopefully one day I will."

Silence. Both comfort and awkward silence. Part of me wants to tell him everything but the other part knows he would be disgusted. I start to pinch my thighs, shut my eyes close, and let out a shaky breath. Trying my hardest not to cry, I don't want him to think I'm weak because I'm not. I just need time to process what happened to me Again.

I feel his presence next to me. I don't look at him, afraid I'll break down. " what did he do to you?" he asks. " I need to know Davina please." I debate with myself not knowing if should say or not, " He um he-" I stop myself. He grabs my hand and softly creases it with his thumb, his other hand grabs my chin to make me look at him. " I promise Vina nothing would make me feel disgusted by you, I know we got off the wrong foot, but that has nothing to do with you, that was all me.

I can't do it, I can't tell him. " I promise I'll tell you but just not today please," I say choking on the last word. He nods and gets up motioning me to get up with him. When I do he grabs my hand and makes me walk towards the water. we slowly go in the water freezing but it somehow feels good on my skin. As we're halfway in he looks at me.

Third Person P.O.V

As both of the teens are in the water, Lorenzo looks at the girl, he softly grasps her waist and pulls her closer to him. The teens stare at each other. There's so much emotion so much tension in the air. he looks at the girl once again before saying anything her hair is slowly getting wet, he feels her hot breath on his chest. He softly places his hand on her cheek creasing it with his thumb. " I have no idea what you're doing to me Davina and it's crushing me. You're making me feel things I haven't felt in forever." The boy softly whispers. Davina looks at the boy "

"One day both of us are going to be able to answer the questions we have," he says. He shows her the tattoo he has right above his heart. " I don't know how to feel" She looks up at the boy. Her hands wrapped around his neck, and she places her head on his chest listening to his heartbeat. " You're going to be the death of me, Davina Eileen. He places a soft kiss on her forehead as they both stand there in silence.

As the sunset starts both of them realize that they are both going to hurt each other in the end, but they can't help but slowly fall in love. Unfortunately one day in the very near future the truth and the secrets will come out, But until then.

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HI guys I'm so sorry if you guys find this chapter boring but I love Billie's knew the song and decided to add it to the story.

I promise it's going to get interesting again