The russian one

Chapter 19 : no emotions

Y/n's POV

So Nat and I walk into Fury's office, we see him sitting at his desk with Maria at his side. They look like they are working on a case. When we entered, they both looked up to see who had just entered.

"Ah Romanoff,and Y/n, come sit down." I was behind Nat so they didn't get a good look at me yet. I'm a little apprehensive about their reaction.

We then moved to the chairs in front of the director's office. I entered their field of vision and their expression changed from expectation to shock and then the director's expression immediately became more serious. Natasha waited until I was seated before sitting down. So I sat down, with great difficulty but trying not to show anything. Unfortunately they all saw, Natasha looked at me with concern, as well as Maria. While Fury looks even more upset than usual. I gave Nat a reassuring look before turning to the two agents in front of us.

"So it's true" began Fury annoyed, I then looked at him with curiosity and I frowned with incomprehension.

"What is true?" I asked him.

"Tell me agent Ivanov, what happened to you?" he asked me. I felt my heart racing in my chest. I can't tell him, if the other agents find out that I ratted them out, they will want revenge.

"Hmm uh I... hmm I'm not sure I understand what you want to know sir." I replied then, unsure.

"Are you sure?" he then asked me. I clenched my jaw, looked down and nodded my head, saying yes out loud. The director straightened in his chair with a sigh.

"Then you probably have no idea what this is." he told me, pointing to the TV screen in the corner of the room. I start to panic. He turns on the TV and my heart stops beating. I froze at the images of the agents beating me senseless. I clenched my fists so hard that I was shaking. I couldn't take my eyes off the screen. Fury kept his eyes on me.

"Sir please, that's enough," Nat intervened. Fury turned off the screen and looked at me again. For my part I was still looking at the screen, which was now black, I was still shaking and clenching my jaw.

Fury sighed and his gaze turned to concern. I felt someone take my hand which made me come out of my torpor.

"Y/n..." Nat said softly and I realized that I had frozen for several minutes, I looked at her, then at Maria, then at Fury and then back at her and finally I looked down. I clenched my jaw, closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My heart was racing and my breathing was quickening. This is ridiculous, I'm making a fool of myself in front of everyone. When this kind of thing happened in Hydra, it often went wrong... They would just beat me up until...

Выключить (Turn it off) I heard in my mind.

When I opened my eyes again I saw shock and incomprehension on the faces of those present. Nat retracted her hand and stepped back.

"Sorry, you were saying?" I said in a monotone voice. They all exchanged glances and then regained control of their emotions.

"I asked you if you knew what that video was," said Fury.

"Of course, it's a video of me being beaten up by your agents because they wanted to get revenge for all the evil I did to them as a Death Giver." I answered without emotion which took them by surprise. "I have a question about that, why am I not locked up?" I asked. Fury frowned.

"Why would you want to be in a cell?"

"That's obvious, though. Am I not your enemy?" I asked nonchalantly.

Fury looked at Natasha questioningly but she shrugged.

"Well, do you consider yourself our enemy?" he asked.