Dangerous. (a Jack Gilinsky and Sammy Wilkinson Fanfic

Chapter Sixteen.

*Jack's Pov*

I was beyond happy I had my girl back, my beautiful, perfect, Ariana. We've been really happy for the past couple months but lately Ari's been acting really weird. I'm back home and she's up at school and she's coming home today and I was picking her up from the airport. Her flight was landing at 3:30 and it was nearly 3:00, so I should get going. I grabbed my phone and car keys and walked out of the house. I got in the car and started the engine. As I pulled out of the driveway I began thinking about everything. I was worried about Ari, she sounded tired all the time and I noticed when we Skype she won't move the camera past her neck. Her face is skinner too, I have no idea what's going on. I've asked Nash about it but he hasn't said anything. All I know is that Addison went up to visit Ari last week and she came home in tears. I asked her what happened and all she kept saying was "You'll see". A half hour later I arrived at the airport. I parked the car and walked through the airport until I got to Ariana's gate. I was early so I waited nervously as I tapped my foot rapidly on the floor. I held a bouquet of white roses, Ariana's favorite. Suddenly, the attendant opened the gate doors and people began pouring out. I stood up and anxiously waited until I finally saw her. My heart broke at the sight and I felt like bursting into tears, I knew what Addison was talking about. She smiled weakly at me and I ran up to her and she jumped into my arms and I held her there cradling her small boney body as we cried silently and I stroked her hair. I squeezed her body tighter against mine as I whispered in her ear;

"Why are you doing it?" I whispered as she sniffled and I placed her on the ground. She shook her head and I knew she was uncomfortable so, I changed the topic.

"Never mind, let's get going. Matthew is in town and he wants to meet up, cool?" I ask as Ariana dried her tears and nodded with a weak smile. I smile back as I give her the roses and I grab her hand. We got her bags and then walked to the car. We sat in the car and I leaned over and kissed her. For a second I forgot about it, I forgot about everything. Her lips were still my escape. We pulled back and she smiled at me and I put my hand on her thigh as I began driving. I noticed Ari cringed when I touched her, I suddenly felt like crying. We had an uncomfortable silence the entire car ride until finally we got home. I carried her bags in and placed them in my room and then went downstairs to where Ariana was on her phone. She looked up at me and smiled and I smiled back. "Hey baby girl, wanna go see your mom?" I asked as she nodded and grabbed my hand as we walked out the door and down the street to her house. As Ari skipped up the steps of the door I noticed how she hadn't said anything since I've seen her.

"Ari, I love you," I whispered and she smiled;

"I love you too, Jack." I felt relief wash over me. I just wanted to hear her voice all the time. Suddenly, Ariana's mother opened the door and she smiled a fake smile. I saw pain in her eyes as Ariana leaned in to hug her and she was forced to wrap her arms around her body which felt like torture at that point. I saw her glance at me and I looked to the floor. I just couldn't believe she would do such a thing. Her mother pulled back and then hugged me. We walked into the house and Ari beamed, she ran all over the house and up to her room. I laughed a little as she ran around the place before her mother started to brew coffee and I sat down at the island in front of her. She sighed and waited until Ari was in her room to talk.

"How did you let this happen?" She said quietly. I felt angry, how is it my fault? I know I should've taken better care of her but I didn't know. I blame myself greatly for this but it's not only my fault.

"Listen, I hate this. Her killing herself like that? She's my world and I'm in love with her. I love her so much it hurts. I didn't know. And I know it's my job to know but I didn't know. Okay? I knew something was up but I didn't know it was this until I saw her. It kills me, she cringes at my touch and that itself makes me want to die. I'm going to fix this, I promise. I'll do anything to help my baby." Ariana's mom looked up at me with tears in her eyes and nodded;

"Thank you. I believe you'll do it, I know you will."

*Ari's Pov*

I could feel the tension. Did Jack not love me anymore? We usually slept literally on each other and now even in the same bed it feels like we're miles apart. I rolled over and shook Jack awake,

"Hmm? Ari? Are you okay, baby?" Jack groggily said.

"Yeah, I'm fine, baby. I just... I feel so distant. I want you and I miss you. Why is it like this? I know I look different but I'm not different, I'm me! I walk and talk and I'm fine! Please don't push me away, please, please, please." I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I whispered my words. I felt Jack move closer and wrap his arms around me.

"You tell me why you're doing it and we can have sex." I bursted out laughing until I realized that Jack was serious. I swallowed and nodded. I need to feel Jack, I need to have him and if I have to tell him why to get that, so be it. I took a deep breath and began my story of hell;

"It started one day on the quad at school, I was walking around with my two friends Amber and Lizzie when some girl came up to us and started screaming at Amber for 'screwing her man', Lizzie and I began chuckling quietly because there was this little white girl yelling at Amber, another little white girl. I mean I know it doesn't sound very funny but at the sight it was hilarious. But, the girl yelling at Amber didn't think it was very funny. So, she started screaming at Lizzie and I. Lizzie just started mimicking her so I started laughing really hard and the girl got pissed. She turned to me and started cussing and screaming at me. I rolled my eyes just a little which ticked her off just enough to say those cruel words; 'You think this is funny? I wouldn't be laughing if I looked like you, fat ass. Damn, what size dress are you 14?' and so on. She went on and on about how fat I was until I just walked up to her and punched her in the nose. I wasn't crying but I felt horrible on the inside. We walked away and laughed it off but I felt so horrible. She kept it going for weeks. Every time she saw me, another comment. I wouldn't eat anything in public because she was there. People stood up for me, even Sammy. But, it still killed me. That's when it started, I was obsessive. I counted every calorie and kept a journal on everything I ate, even if it was just a bite of an apple. I wouldn't eat. I restricted and I starved myself so extremely I've passed out at least ten times. Amber, as my roommate noticed it and was scared for me so she took me to the hospital. I was diagnosed and admitted to a treatment center. I couldn't stay there, I had school. So, I checked myself out and went back to school. Amber, Lizzie, my friend Mike, Ally, Grayson, Becky and Chris have all teamed up on this great effort to help me. And it's working, I feel great and I'm getting better. So there, that's my story." Jack didn't answer. I waited a few seconds until I felt his lips on mine. We kept kissing and Jack lifted my shirt up and kissed down my stomach. He kissed my neck, my collarbones, my chest, my hips, my thighs and everything in between. He was trying to make me feel beautiful. And as far as I was concerned, he was.

authors note
hi my loves.
eating disorder hotline: 800-931-2237
if you are struggling with an eating disorder do not be afraid to reach out. my dm's are always open, I suffer(ed) from bulimia and anorexia and I'm always willing to help someone who is struggling.

have faith and stay strong :-)
xx ari