Dangerous. (a Jack Gilinsky and Sammy Wilkinson Fanfic

Chapter Twenty-One.

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"Ari? Are you okay?" I heard someone say.

"Jack? Is that you?" I asked opening my eyes to see Addison, Nash, Mrs. Gilinsky, and the entire funeral staring at me.

"No, it's me, Addison. You fainted right as you were about to see Jack's... Are you okay?" I felt panicked as I grabbed my phone and checked my messages... Nothing. I checked my call record and no calls from Jack, there was nothing. It wasn't real, Jack is still gone. Tears filled my eyes.

"How long have I been out?" I whispered as my voice cracked.

"10 minutes," Addison answered.

"Can I see him?" I asked looking up. Mrs. Gilinsky nodded.

"Of course," She said helping me up. She walked me to the doorway and hugged me tightly. "You'll be okay," She whispered as tears fell from her eyes. I nodded and kissed her cheek before I walked in. I saw his hair again and my eyes became blurry. 

"Oh god..." I whispered walking closer to him. When his face came into view I felt sick. I ran up to his body and started sobbing into his cold, lifeless chest."I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." As my head lay on his chest I looked up and saw his perfectly shaped face, this was him, this was Jack. "I'm never gonna forget you, okay? You died the love of my life and I'll die with you as the love of my life. I won't love anyone like I love you.You're mine and I'm yours, forever." I brushed my hand through his hair. "I love you, Jack Finnegan Gilinsky. I will always, always love you." I kissed his cold lips one final time and placed my hand on his cheek looking at his gorgeous face for the very last time. A tear fell on his nose and I smiled remembering the times he would kiss my nose. I wiped the tear off his nose and stood up. "I love you, Jack, goodbye."

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"Now we have our final speaker, Miss Ariana James." I shakily got up and walked up in front of the church. I looked down and took a deep breath as tears constantly fell down my cheeks.

"When I first met Jack, he introduced himself as 'Jack Gilinsky, AKA my future boyfriend.'" Everyone quietly chuckled as I continued; "Never in a million years would I think I would fall for his beautiful smile and contagious laugh." I took a deep breath and fiddled with my thumbs. "He was the most beautiful person I had ever met." I said looking up to the crowd. "I'm not going to lie to all you people mourning over the death of this beautiful boy; He is a coward, a traitor." Everyone gave small gasps and began to whisper. "How could he? Leave not only his family, friends, loved ones, but how could you leave me, Jack? You promised me, you promised." I said as I began sobbing. "I am not just angry, I'm furious. How could he? I have made it through the death of my best friend, lies, an eating disorder, depression, a miscarriage with his baby at 6 months pregnant, and do you know how I survived that? That pain and heartbreak? Jack, Finnegan, Gilinsky. So, you know what, Jack? Fuck you," I said sobbing. "I love him," I whispered as my voice cracked. "I will love him until the moment my heart stops beating. I love you, Jack. Forever and always, forever and always," I whispered. Everyone began crying more and gave small smiles as I stepped down and just for a spilt second, I could've sworn I heard Jack's voice;

"I love you too, Ari. Never forget that," Tears spilled down my face as I looked up and whispered to myself;

"I won't, I promise."