My Illness

Part 14

Rosie pov

We went back to Killian's trailer and he invited everyone over. Gwen, Violet, Addison, Tyler, Kyle and Anderson. We were all sitting in the living room.

Kyle - "Why?"

Killian - "Why what, Kyle?"

Kyle - "Cut the crap, Killian. Why did you hide this secret for then years?"

Tyler - "From all of us"

Killian - "I just... thought things would be better this way"

He was hiding something, but I wasn't exactly sure what it was.

Anderson - "Dude, we understand if you would've kept it on the down-low for a bit, but ten years? Really, man?"

Kyle - "Why'd you fucking do it, Killian?"

Killian - "YOU WANNA KNOW WHY I FUCKING DID IT?! BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT ANY OF YOU YOU SEE ME LIKE THAT! DAMAGED. I HAVE TO BE THERE FOR EVERYONE ELSE BUT WHO'S THERE FOR ME?! I'M A FUCKING GANG LEADER! I'M NOT ALLOWED TO BE VULNERABLE! BECAUSE AS SOON AS I AM EVERY SINGLE PERSON I CARE ABOUT GETS PUT IN DANGER! THAT INCLUDES EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU!"

Everyone's facial expressions softened after what Kil had just said, even his. I had no idea that was the reason he never told anyone.

Kyle - (softly) "I'm sorry"

Anderson - "Lucero, it's okay to not be okay sometimes"

Killian - "Actually, for me, it's really not. When I'm vulnerable, I'm weak. And I'm not allowed to be weak. Ever"

Violet - "Killian, you're allowed to be weak"

Killian - "I'm the leader of a gang, V. I have a lot of enemies. The second I'm weak; they strike. I can't afford to be weak because it could cost one of you guys. And I can't lose you guys"

By now, he was tearing up. A tear fell down his cheek and he wiped it off. Everyone hugged him and they stayed there like that for a little bit. Eventually, I joined the hug too.

Rosie - "You can't let me be the only one not in this hug"

Everyone laughed or chuckled and pulled out of the hug. I looked at Killie and cupped his cheek.

Rosie - "Are you okay?"

Killian - "No. But you're here, so I will be"

I smiled and hugged him tightly.

Killian - "I love you, Rose"

Rosie - "I love you too, Killie. Always and forever"

Violet - "Dude, I've never seen you this happy before in my life, Lucero. I'm surprised"

Addison - "I've never seen Rosie this happy either. I'm glad you moved on from Zane"

Gwen - "And I'm glad you let someone in after what happened"

Killian - (growls) "If he wasn't already dead I would murder that son of a bitch myself"

Addison - "Who, Zane?"

Rosie - "No... um..."

She noticed my hesitation and realized I was talking about my father. We all talked for a bit and I think everyone needed it. After everyone left, I kissed Killie goodbye and left with Addison. We went back to her house and by this point, it was kind of late. We had leftovers and I took a shower before we went straight to bed.