My Illness

Part 19

Rosie pov

My arm shook as I lowered it, and I stared at Brooke who was now lying dead on the ground. The Spirits surrounding her looked at me with fear in their eyes before running off back into the woods. All eyes were on me now. What have I done?

Rosie - "I-I ju-just k-killed some-somebody. I d-didn't me-mean t-to I-I swe-swear"

Everyone was in shock. Nobody knew what to say.

Killian - "Rose..."

He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out.

Rosie - "I-I'm so-sorry"

Killian - "Don't be sorry. It was an accident. I'll call my dad and he'll get rid of the body. The spirits won't say anything because most of them have a warrant out for their arrest. I don't know why they're still in Hullbeck"

I didn't know what to say. I just murdered somebody! Why was he helping me cover it up? He told me that other warriors have killed people but he's never done it himself. And I believe him. Violet and Gwen brought me back to our trailer and I was still shaking. In the meantime, Killie said he was calling his dad and he would take care of it and then come home. About an hour later, the door opened. I looked and it was Killie, Tyler, Anderson and Elliot. Both Killian and Elliot were covered in dirt.

Elliot - "In a week there'll be nothing left of the body. It's gone"

Rosie - "Th-thank y-you"

Everyone was silent. What just happened was unbelievable.

Elliot - "I gotta get back to my trailer, but I have a question for Killian first"

Killian - "Everything okay?"

Elliot - "No, I've just been hearing some weird noises from your trailer"

Kil and I looked at each other and the colour drained from both of our faces.

Elliot - "I think I know what the noises were now"

Tyler - "I um... I think I should leave now"

Anderson - "Yeah uh me too"

They both left and not long after, so did Violet, Gwen and Elliot.

Killian - "I should probably go shower"

Rosie - "Do you mind if I come with you?"

Killian - "Well, I'll never complain about seeing you naked"

Rosie - (giggles) "Oh shut up!"

We went to the bathroom and both undressed before turning on the water and getting in the shower. When we got in, I felt myself tearing up and Killie wrapped his arms around my waist from being me.

Killian - "What's wrong, baby?"

Rosie - (tears) "Why do you still love and protect me, Killie? I just killed somebody!"

Killian - "Because I know what kind of person you are, Rose. And I know you didn't mean to do it. You were upset and mad at her and you shot her before you even knew what you were doing"

Rosie - "You're too good, Killie. I don't deserve you"

Killian - "No don't say that, Rose. Baby, you deserve the whole world, the whole universe! You have been through hell and back. You are THE strongest person I know. While your heart was shattered, you still made sure everyone was okay before you even began the think about yourself. We're all a little damaged, Rose. Some more than others. And even though I may have helped a little, you put the pieces back together yourself. And now you have an even bigger heart. One that I love more than words and describe. You can count every single star in the universe and I love you more than all of them. I'm the one that doesn't deserve you, baby"

I didn't know what to say, so I simply wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tightly.

Rosie - "Thank you, Killie"

Killian - "Thank you, Rose"

Rosie - "What are you thanking me for?"

Killina - "For completing me"

I smiled. We both finished our shower and got into PJs. I, of course, was just wearing panties and one of Killie's shirts. He wore sweatpants and no shirt. We got into bed and just held each other, not wanting to let go. I didn't want to lose him, and I also didn't want to admit that I knew I would eventually. And soon.

*The next morning*

I woke up the next morning in Killie's arms. I smiled and kissed his cheek. I looked at the time and it was 6:30 am. He was still asleep but something felt off. I soon realized that he wasn't breathing. I checked his pulse too. Nothing. No, this couldn't be happening. I started tearing up. I didn't know what to do. I started doing CPR. Still nothing. I was hopeless. I ran into Violet's trailer. By this time, I was crying, tears running down my face. I knocked several times but she didn't answer. Eventually, she opened the door, rubbing her eyes.

Violet - (groans) "Rosie it's not even seven in the morning"

Rosie - "It's Kil. His times up"

She was definitely more awake after I told her that.

Violet - "What? Oh my god"

Rosie - "I don't know what to do, V"

Violet - "Stay calm. I'll go get his parents"

She ran past me into Elliot's trailer. He opened the door still half asleep. I was too far away to hear what they were saying. I saw Elliot's eyes widen and he went back inside. A few seconds later, he came back out with Christine and Taylor. I willed my legs to move to go back to Kil's and my trailer. Everything was a blur. The ambulance arriving, the crying and Kil being put into a body bag. The ambulance eventually left, and everyone was in the trailer. My mom, Addison, Kyle, Carly, Herman, Violet, Taylor, Christine, Elliot, Tyler and Anderson.

Anna - "I'm so sorry, honey. I know how much you loved him"

Rosie - "Um... can I have a minute in the trailer alone for a few minutes?"

Christine - "I'm not sure that's the best idea right now, sweetie"

Rosie - "Please? I won't break anything"

A moment passed before anyone said anything.

Elliot - "Sure, Rosie"

Rosie - "Thanks"

He grimaced and left. I went to the bathroom and started crying, all of our memories flooding back. I couldn't do it. I went into the bathroom and found the razor. I ripped off a piece of tissue paper and found a marker.

I'm sorry. I need him